it's always waiting for us. I have my own struggles with it.
I (and many of my other ED friends) avoid trigger behaviors whenever possible. No counting calories, no food journals, no fun with scales, no size tracking beyond clothing becoming too large. Basically, nothing that feeds the monster. Exercise is totally fine, but done for overall fitness and not as a "weight loss". Dancing is for *fun*.
I hope you are able to keep your monster on a chain. Mine continues to slide in when I am not looking at start gnawing on my leg. *sigh*
I have a friend who is a nutritionist (and is studying to become a super awesome ND) says I have an EDOU (Eating Disorder Otherwise Unspecified). I describe it as apathetic anorexia. It's less about control or weight management for me, and more about not really being bothered to eat - making food takes a lot of energy and money, and eating food takes time and effort, and processing food in the body is time consuming, messy, and often painful for me. It leads me to sometimes avoid it, which is very bad and I know it.
I think I may need to make myself an EDOU monster doll.
I (and many of my other ED friends) avoid trigger behaviors whenever possible. No counting calories, no food journals, no fun with scales, no size tracking beyond clothing becoming too large. Basically, nothing that feeds the monster. Exercise is totally fine, but done for overall fitness and not as a "weight loss". Dancing is for *fun*.
I hope you are able to keep your monster on a chain. Mine continues to slide in when I am not looking at start gnawing on my leg. *sigh*
I have a friend who is a nutritionist (and is studying to become a super awesome ND) says I have an EDOU (Eating Disorder Otherwise Unspecified). I describe it as apathetic anorexia. It's less about control or weight management for me, and more about not really being bothered to eat - making food takes a lot of energy and money, and eating food takes time and effort, and processing food in the body is time consuming, messy, and often painful for me. It leads me to sometimes avoid it, which is very bad and I know it.
I think I may need to make myself an EDOU monster doll.
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