Open relationships are for the birds.
So I guess my horniness has finally caught up with me.
After making out with various people and feeling no guilt whatsoever, I began to feel some the other day. On Christmas Eve when I was with Sam I didn't want to let him leave... I wanted to hold him forever. That was just the beginning.
So today I look at J-Fo's website, at the TLI pics, and like 3/4 of them are of Sam, fondling Ginevra and some other in various positions. Now, not only am I ed because he lied to me and told me nothing happened at TLI (wow, our versions of nothing are very different), I am realizing just how deeply it hurts to see Sam with somone else.
The younger me would have flipped out and started a fight. I'm hoping that when I talk to him tomorrow I won't, and that I'll just be able to mention it in passing without making too big of a deal out of it.
I'm so masochistic. I just want to look at those photos until they make me sick to my stomach... because I deserve it, for thinking that it was okay for us to be "open."
After making out with various people and feeling no guilt whatsoever, I began to feel some the other day. On Christmas Eve when I was with Sam I didn't want to let him leave... I wanted to hold him forever. That was just the beginning.
So today I look at J-Fo's website, at the TLI pics, and like 3/4 of them are of Sam, fondling Ginevra and some other in various positions. Now, not only am I ed because he lied to me and told me nothing happened at TLI (wow, our versions of nothing are very different), I am realizing just how deeply it hurts to see Sam with somone else.
The younger me would have flipped out and started a fight. I'm hoping that when I talk to him tomorrow I won't, and that I'll just be able to mention it in passing without making too big of a deal out of it.
I'm so masochistic. I just want to look at those photos until they make me sick to my stomach... because I deserve it, for thinking that it was okay for us to be "open."