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Long time no update. I haven't updated this thing in forever. Alot of things have gone on, some good, some bad. Today I was thinking about how everyone seemed to be so happy being with a boyfriend, and it made me want to be with someone. Then other events have gone on where they sit home and mope around because they dont have one anymore. That makes me not want one because I dont want to be the one crying over something like that. I mean I know people get attached easily and things have gone on between the two where it's even harder to get over them. I wouldn't want to be like that. I havent had the chance yet to be in a serious relationship. It's because of the way I look or it's because the guys at my school are complete assholes and care too much about there reputation and their friends that they wouldn't want to be with me because you know that would ruin their life or something. I dont know I'm just sick of everything. I mean I've been happy and I could care less at this point but about once a week or so I just stop and think and I get pissed off. It's not even worth it anymore. I'm doing things for myself because I want to do them yet I just want to be a normal person and have just a good a chance with someone like any other girl could. I'm not depressed, I dont need to go see councling and I dont talk to my friends and be annoying over stupid shit like this. I really just dont care sometimes because it's not even worth the time anymore. I'm not going to sit here and just feel sorry for myself when I can be out doing things and keeping my mind off things.
On another note, I've been going to the gym lately. I went to a dance friday with devan, monique, and kyrsten. Of course I wasn't thinking about how my legs would feel after dancing because they have been sore lately from working out. Now my left leg is feeling the pain and I dont know how long it's going to be feeling like this. I need to go to the gym, but I obviously wont be until it stops hurting. Ahh I don't know I am really upset about it. I am walking around like an idiot and it hurts really bad. I hate my life sometimes. Well I guess I am done updating for right now. I will most likely update sometime during the week, but like always most likely not.
On another note, I've been going to the gym lately. I went to a dance friday with devan, monique, and kyrsten. Of course I wasn't thinking about how my legs would feel after dancing because they have been sore lately from working out. Now my left leg is feeling the pain and I dont know how long it's going to be feeling like this. I need to go to the gym, but I obviously wont be until it stops hurting. Ahh I don't know I am really upset about it. I am walking around like an idiot and it hurts really bad. I hate my life sometimes. Well I guess I am done updating for right now. I will most likely update sometime during the week, but like always most likely not.