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1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before? for the first time ever i fell in love. i'm not in love anymore but i was and i'm happy to say that i was able to experience that because i was able to experience it at such a young age and i know i will again and i'm lucky for that because some people live their whole lives and never fall in love.
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year? i didn't keep it, i tried to but sometimes no matter how bad you want to do something or not do something, you just can't. i have the same resolution this year, so we'll see what happens.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth? no, but my brother is going to be having a baby sometime very soon.
4. Did anyone close to you die? yes, and we all miss you.
5. What countries did you visit? i stayed in this country all year, i did make a visit to a few different states though.
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004? more independence and a higher self-esteem, because with that comes happiness and no one will be able to make me happy until i can make myself happy.
7. What date from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? not a specific date, but just the summer in general..it was all about fun, there was no bullshit, no nothing, i was just surrounded by good people with good hearts it was the best summer i can remember.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? making the "A" honor roll first quarter of sophomore year. i realized that school is the only thing pretty much that can get me out of this town and i really needed to stop fucking around and get my grades up, i tried and i succeeded and it felt pretty good.
9. What was your biggest failure? i don't think i had one, i don't regret anything i ever do, at the time yes it may be stupid, but you learn from everything, if you never make mistakes you never learn and you never live. so everything i've done as stupid as they might have been, i didn't fail because i grew from those experiences and that doesn't sound like failure to me.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury? i'm pretty lucky to say, i was healthy all year.
11. What was the best thing you bought? probably my bowl because with that came great memories, and great times that i will never forget.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration? my dad's, as much as he pisses me off most of the time he's really changing and it's making my family so much stronger and he's making my mom so much happier, and out of all the people i know, my mom deserves to be happy more than anyone.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? no one, yes people make me upset at some things they do, but thats not their normal behavior, everyone has their bad days.
14. Where did most of your money go? this one's easy, most of my money defenitly went to weed. what a shame ha.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about? diane's house when her parents went away, god those were good times.
16. What song will always remind you of 2004? let's get retarted by the black eyed peas or jesus walks- those were our party songs this summer, god this summer was the best
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? i hate to say it, but i'm sadder. i don't know where this saddness is coming from and thats what bothers me the most. it's just a bunch of things, but i can't exactly pinpoint what it is. and nothing makes me more upset than not knowing why i'm upset in the first place.
ii. thinner or fatter? fatter- that's what you get for having the munchies most of the time.
iii. richer or poorer? mm, same. i had no money last year and i still have no money.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of? talked to my friends, we're growing distant. it's not that we don't hang out, we do. but the weird thing is when we do hang out, its that like awkward, "okay what should be do now" feelings and that never used to happen because all we used to do was talk, but we're all at so many different points in our lives that its hard to talk to eachother because we aren't going through the same things so we can't really relate, which is sad.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of? gone on the computer, god thats all my ass does and i wonder why i have no life.
20. How did you be spend Christmas? at home with my family.
22. Did you fall in love in 2004? yes
23. How many one-night stands? well no official one night stands, because those involve sex, but just like hook-ups, just one.
24. What was your favorite TV program? Degrassi
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? no, i don't hate anyone
26. What was the best book you read? the perks of being a wallflower
27. What was your greatest musical discovery? i started listening to every type of music. music is the one thing i can relate to, and at different times there is a need for different music.
28. What did you want and get? a digital camera, i just got one for christmas and i love it and i got my tongue pierced.
29. What did you want and not get? an ipod, but my birthday is coming up soon so hopefully.
30. What was your favorite film of this year? garden state, by far. i just saw it for the first time today, and i'm in love.
31. What did you do on your birthday? for my birthday i went to gasho with jessica, diane, and kevin.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying? i can't really say because everything happens because of something else and if one thing doesn't happen weather it be bad or good, something else that is amazing might not happen
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004? defenitly more casual, i wear what i like and what's comfortable and thats it.
34. What kept you sane? talking to jenna, i can talk to that girl about anything and we can read eachothers minds, its so perfect, have the time i don't even have to tell her what i'm thinking, and she justs knows, which is awesome because most of the time i don't like having to say how i feel.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most? chad michael murray, he is so gorgeous,
36. What political issue stirred you the most? i don't really follow politics so i'm not gunna answer this and try to sound like i know what i'm talking about because i don't.
37. Who did you miss? as always..
38. Who was the best new person you met? i met a bunch of awesome people this year, i can't just pick one. well, i don't know if she counts cause i defenitly knew her, but me and meister started getting close again this year which is nice considering we used to be best friends.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003: you have to be happy with yourself before anyone else can make you happy.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
"We made promises we couldn't keep
And every night we couldn't sleep.
I didn't know why, but didn't ask questions
because it was the first time in my life, yeah the first time in my life
Where I, did something right."
"Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard"