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You know what I was thinking about today? I was thinking about the summer before my junior year and the time that I was at Raintree Park with some friends and a debate started about how to spell Poulos' last name. We all went back and forth for a while and finally David said "Look. Poulos is my best friend and I would know how to spell it. It's P-o-l-o-u-s." And out of nowhere walks up nick and he said "Uh, dude, that's not how you spell it."
I don't know why I was thinking about that, I guess little memories stick with me sometimes. It's just funny how everything felt so important that summer and none of it made any impact on my life today. I really don't feel as if 99.9% of anything that happened in high school made any difference to me today. I'm not the same person, I definitely don't hang out with the same people, I think my life is completely different. Not to say that I like it any more that how everything was in high school, it's just very different. Every conversation I have with the people who used to be such a huge part of my life feels so forced now. It feels like we just have some obligation to keep things going. I think the only person I talk to somewhat consistantly anymore would be Dave, which I was pretty surprised by. But even talking to him feels like we're struggling to keep it going. But I do miss all of them. I just don't think it's mutual anymore.
Whatever, I really hate nostalgia. I hate feeling sorry for myself because I lost friends. But it really does bother me.
I don't know why I was thinking about that, I guess little memories stick with me sometimes. It's just funny how everything felt so important that summer and none of it made any impact on my life today. I really don't feel as if 99.9% of anything that happened in high school made any difference to me today. I'm not the same person, I definitely don't hang out with the same people, I think my life is completely different. Not to say that I like it any more that how everything was in high school, it's just very different. Every conversation I have with the people who used to be such a huge part of my life feels so forced now. It feels like we just have some obligation to keep things going. I think the only person I talk to somewhat consistantly anymore would be Dave, which I was pretty surprised by. But even talking to him feels like we're struggling to keep it going. But I do miss all of them. I just don't think it's mutual anymore.
Whatever, I really hate nostalgia. I hate feeling sorry for myself because I lost friends. But it really does bother me.