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I'm sad tonight.
I miss her, and I want her to know. But I can't tell her. Nobody can tell her. The more she knows about how I feel or what I'm doing or thinking, the more she dislikes me. Not that it matters anymore, since we aren't speaking.
My heart aches tremendously.
I'm not even sure she ever loved me. In fact, I don't think she did. And to spend all the time and energy and commitment on her, to stay with her all those months that she was in a relationship, to have her meet my family, and to love her like I did.. Being on this side is just terrible.
I feel like she's never had her heart broken deeply enough. It's never been shattered by somebody. And until that happens, she will continue to destroy the hearts of the people who care most about her. I don't wish that on her though. Maybe her being naive to the pain is a blessing.
I hope she's happy still. I really, truly hope she is. Her smile is enough to light up all of Orlando. She really captivated me, that girl.
If someone would just take my extra Ben Folds ticket, maybe I'd feel slightly better.
I miss her, and I want her to know. But I can't tell her. Nobody can tell her. The more she knows about how I feel or what I'm doing or thinking, the more she dislikes me. Not that it matters anymore, since we aren't speaking.
My heart aches tremendously.
I'm not even sure she ever loved me. In fact, I don't think she did. And to spend all the time and energy and commitment on her, to stay with her all those months that she was in a relationship, to have her meet my family, and to love her like I did.. Being on this side is just terrible.
I feel like she's never had her heart broken deeply enough. It's never been shattered by somebody. And until that happens, she will continue to destroy the hearts of the people who care most about her. I don't wish that on her though. Maybe her being naive to the pain is a blessing.
I hope she's happy still. I really, truly hope she is. Her smile is enough to light up all of Orlando. She really captivated me, that girl.
If someone would just take my extra Ben Folds ticket, maybe I'd feel slightly better.