selfish.

[feiticeira_x]

i'm not here to make any excuses
because this is not a poem i wrote for you to hear
i wrote this for myself,because yes
i can be selfish
but before you can start judging me
you should remember that you
can be selfish too
so before you start giving me shit about how i need to
"grow up" and "move on"
remember back when you were my age
and you first had your soul slashed open by some
"she devil" or that "no good asshole"
he never did call you back
did he?
remember when she asked you
"do you love me?"
"do you really care about me?"
"am i really all you want?"
and you didn't know what to say
because you didn't know how she felt
and you didn't know what was the right answer
and what was wrong
so remember
before you judge me
before you tell me
"grow up","move on",and "look forward"
think back to when you were my age
and you can remember
that you were selfish too
that you too had aspirations
and dreams
and cared not for anything,anything else
when those aspirations and dreams were on your mind
right?
you don't need to answer
i already know
so you see why i've written this
as a eulogy to people i've lost,to dreams i contain
you see where i'm coming from
these teenage years
you know where i'm coming from
you've been there too
so i'm asking you
to take into account
what i've said
and what you know
before you call me selfish
before you call me naive,young,self-centered,immature,crass,insolent,and stupid
remember what you were like
at my age.