letter to God
Dear God,
Thank you for all you have given me. My wonderful Goddaughter, whom without I wouldn’t even be here. My friends who get me through the day, they help me along and tell me everything will work out. For Veronika who is my guiding light, the one who keeps me humble and sane, the one who makes me look at everything and see others’ issues and problems. For Dan who saved me from myself, keeps me safe, is honest with me, helps me to learn and be patient, loves me for who I am, makes me laugh…. For Kelli who makes me see the truth, challenges me and the world. For Emma Rose and her sense of humor and smile that I look forward to seeing each day. For Jackie whom I pray for and hope for and help with her problems, whom I share my secrets with.
My family who only wants the best for me and guides me even when I don’t want it. Heather for whom I worry and lose sleep over, but never have to, my baby sister who I protect. Lisa my crazy cousin with whom I can be myself, who shares all the gossip. My mother who loves me and worries about me, and cries over me and grounds me for my own good. My Dad who helps me with school, listens to my mother complain about me, listens to me complain about my mother, who never takes sides.
Thank you God for the sun in the sky, the moon in the night, the rain in the clouds, the day to warm, the night to rejuvinate, the animals to care for, the plants to give, the world to be responsible for.
Thank you for the little things. A warm blanket at night, a late night phone call, a warm car in the morning, comfortable shoes, a dog to hug and cry to, smiles, hugs, kisses, letters, emails, oranges, chocolate, socks, nightlights, diet coke, a soft pillow to rest my head on, the radio, free time to sketch, crayons to color with, nerves to feel, boys, girls, the ability to love.
God, thank you for everything. I’m sorry for all I have said and done. I’m sorry I said you don’t exist. I’m sorry for my lack of patience, all good things take time, I know that now. I’m sorry for my lack of faith, my ignorance, my total disregard for what you have given me. I’m sorry that I did not answer your call. I’m sorry I did not try my hardest. I’m sorry that I wasted the talents given to me.
Above all, I’m sorry, I love you, thank you for life and everything.
~Emma Christine~