life in the now
I am at the uni putzing around on the internet. Well not really. I don´t have anymore money on my phone. I am on a tight budget and don´t want to put more money on it. Therefore, I have lots of emails to send. This is the time when things are hectic, fun, exciting, and weird.
Hectic: getting everything ready to move out of Trier and head back to the U.S, making plans and squeezing people in to the crazy schedule and always being on the go. Lots of errands to run. Yesterday, for example, I closed my bank account in Trier and made my appointment with the Hall director for moving out.
fun: Not being bored cause I am always doing something. Making plans with friends. Doing the things I´ve wanted to do since I got here and so doing funny little things because I have to squeeze them in before I go. For example, I took the bus I usually ride all of the way to the end of the line, Just to see were it goes and if it goes in the direction I think it does. When everyone got off of the bus and I was the only person still on I ended up confusing the poor busdriver who can´t help but be a mildly inflexible German who just isn´t used to people riding on the bus just to see where it goes. That was hysterical.
exciting: I get to leave and start something new. Accomplishing the many tasks that enable this to happen and living it up until I go. This is quite exciting. Although a lot fo new things will be happening when I return to the U.S while I am excited to get started. I know things aren´t going to get easy anytime soon. I don´t usually worry but I have actually been confessing to God quite often how there are a whole lot of new things awaiting me that I have no idea about, can´t afford just yet, and just don´t know how to deal with. I have to tell God these things cause then it reminds me that I am telling Him because He will allow for these things to be taken care of. That not only do I not need to worry but worry isn´t an option for Christians. Faith is supposed to be the only option. So though I sometimes get scared and have to remind myself not to be by telling God, I am excited to see how God will meet me in this new time, how He will get me through, and what I will learn.
weird: Its weird to leave Germany. I am not a person who is used to being rooted somewhere. I have lived quite a nomadic life. therefore, I don´t generally get attached to places. However, I really love Germany. I love Germany the place so much more than I love Florida the place. I love well planned cities. Florida has no excuse for being so shittily ( I need an adverb for shit so bear with me) planned because Trier was planned by the Romans long before America was found and it works so much better than Florida. I love good architecture. I love various elevations. I love the trees that give shade and the spring that seems to bust open. Even when the weather is sucky I love the changing seasons. I love the italian ice cream and being able to leave my front door and walk around all of the time. Therefore, I can eat yummy stuff and not have to force myself to exercise. I love the cheap groceries and having my pick of various cheeses, cold cuts. I love a reliable and well functioning public transportation system. Knowing that all of Europe is easily accesiblle from my front door. Whether I have my pick of plane, train, bus, or ship and I never feel stuck the way I do in Florida. The quality of life that allows for that is just priceless. I am going to miss it very much. I think I can say that I love Europe the place as much as I love New York the place. That is saying a lot cause NY just means a lot to me.
I think most of all I have loved being out of the U.S and just getting a different perspective. Remembering God doesn´t only speak Enlgish. Realizing Christians here don´t necessarily think about issues the way Christians back home might. Personally refreshing for me. Just humbling myself by geing a guest in another culture. Just loving another form of God´s people and allowing myself to be changed by that. It has been challenging at times but truly beneficial.
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So yes this is the state I am in as I buzz around the city by day and realx in the early morning or late night with God. Or take a pause as I pass by the palace gardens or wait at the bus stop or watch cute children or run errands or check my emails.
Ciao
Hectic: getting everything ready to move out of Trier and head back to the U.S, making plans and squeezing people in to the crazy schedule and always being on the go. Lots of errands to run. Yesterday, for example, I closed my bank account in Trier and made my appointment with the Hall director for moving out.
fun: Not being bored cause I am always doing something. Making plans with friends. Doing the things I´ve wanted to do since I got here and so doing funny little things because I have to squeeze them in before I go. For example, I took the bus I usually ride all of the way to the end of the line, Just to see were it goes and if it goes in the direction I think it does. When everyone got off of the bus and I was the only person still on I ended up confusing the poor busdriver who can´t help but be a mildly inflexible German who just isn´t used to people riding on the bus just to see where it goes. That was hysterical.
exciting: I get to leave and start something new. Accomplishing the many tasks that enable this to happen and living it up until I go. This is quite exciting. Although a lot fo new things will be happening when I return to the U.S while I am excited to get started. I know things aren´t going to get easy anytime soon. I don´t usually worry but I have actually been confessing to God quite often how there are a whole lot of new things awaiting me that I have no idea about, can´t afford just yet, and just don´t know how to deal with. I have to tell God these things cause then it reminds me that I am telling Him because He will allow for these things to be taken care of. That not only do I not need to worry but worry isn´t an option for Christians. Faith is supposed to be the only option. So though I sometimes get scared and have to remind myself not to be by telling God, I am excited to see how God will meet me in this new time, how He will get me through, and what I will learn.
weird: Its weird to leave Germany. I am not a person who is used to being rooted somewhere. I have lived quite a nomadic life. therefore, I don´t generally get attached to places. However, I really love Germany. I love Germany the place so much more than I love Florida the place. I love well planned cities. Florida has no excuse for being so shittily ( I need an adverb for shit so bear with me) planned because Trier was planned by the Romans long before America was found and it works so much better than Florida. I love good architecture. I love various elevations. I love the trees that give shade and the spring that seems to bust open. Even when the weather is sucky I love the changing seasons. I love the italian ice cream and being able to leave my front door and walk around all of the time. Therefore, I can eat yummy stuff and not have to force myself to exercise. I love the cheap groceries and having my pick of various cheeses, cold cuts. I love a reliable and well functioning public transportation system. Knowing that all of Europe is easily accesiblle from my front door. Whether I have my pick of plane, train, bus, or ship and I never feel stuck the way I do in Florida. The quality of life that allows for that is just priceless. I am going to miss it very much. I think I can say that I love Europe the place as much as I love New York the place. That is saying a lot cause NY just means a lot to me.
I think most of all I have loved being out of the U.S and just getting a different perspective. Remembering God doesn´t only speak Enlgish. Realizing Christians here don´t necessarily think about issues the way Christians back home might. Personally refreshing for me. Just humbling myself by geing a guest in another culture. Just loving another form of God´s people and allowing myself to be changed by that. It has been challenging at times but truly beneficial.
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So yes this is the state I am in as I buzz around the city by day and realx in the early morning or late night with God. Or take a pause as I pass by the palace gardens or wait at the bus stop or watch cute children or run errands or check my emails.
Ciao