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So I found out that I do not have to tutor this weekend. Upside: I can do something else. Downside: I was hoping I´d make some money. All in all the situation is not dire though. With Germany having incredibly cheap groceries my expenses aren´t that much anyway. SInce Al´s left I´ve been hanging with the host family. YOu can tell you aren´t a guest when you start washing dishes, setting the table and such. This is no problem though and I appreciate that my host family really treats me like one of their family members. Read a murder mystery by Ruth Rendell. I get annoyed by the way Christians get depicted in most books I read. They usually aren´t normal ones. They are usually in cults but the extensive use of Bible stuff... yeah it just gets annoying. Overall though I have no probs with free speech and creative writing. I just start getting frustrated when things get painted in such a black and white light and get spinned into the cookie cutte´r caricatures and stereotypes.
My host mom continually voices her opinions about narrow-minded Christian fundamentalists who vote for George Bush and are against abortions. I don´t even like Bush much at all and she still ticks me off. Also said its not like the church helps any children who suffer in crappy families (these children of course shouldn´t have been born in her opinion)and starve. I almost burst into maniacal laughter because number one she has no idea about what churches in the US do. Number two Al´s family always goes to the church to get food when they have run out of food stamps. And always come back home with a box full of stuff. Number 3 if you really don´t have a decent amount of info about a subject-why not keep your mouth shut or qualify what you say to include your lack of knowledge about it. I get tired of people´s blind hatred of others because they think them so narrow minded and hypocritical and yet they fail to see their responses as the same as those they hate in others.
I din´t say anything to her mainly because I was pissed and didn´t want to say anything to her in anger. I am a firm believer in being honest and opening your mouth (especially when you see another person can benefit from your perspective on an issue). Yet there are times when I just am at a loss for words because I feel people can be so prejudice or blind in some ways they just aren´t capable of a discussion. This really sucks, I would love to talk to more people about my perspective or relationship with God or other topics and yet some of the things that come out of my friends and loved ones mouth just stupifies me. I can´t say anything. They don´t really care about delving into the matter further and that is it. I don´t know how I feel about that or what my role is. Keep my mouth shut and be polite? Retort anyway because no one seems to hold their tongues to me when they have opinions? I don´t know. Perhaps I´ve said things that made people feel the same way as I do now but its just no fun not being able to talk to people about stuff and share opinions. Instead I feel like they just want to fling them in people face.
Now that I have vented have to get ready. Vera and I are going to a club tonight. It will be fun to go out dancing. I´ve got an hour to figure out what I want to do about my attire.
My host mom continually voices her opinions about narrow-minded Christian fundamentalists who vote for George Bush and are against abortions. I don´t even like Bush much at all and she still ticks me off. Also said its not like the church helps any children who suffer in crappy families (these children of course shouldn´t have been born in her opinion)and starve. I almost burst into maniacal laughter because number one she has no idea about what churches in the US do. Number two Al´s family always goes to the church to get food when they have run out of food stamps. And always come back home with a box full of stuff. Number 3 if you really don´t have a decent amount of info about a subject-why not keep your mouth shut or qualify what you say to include your lack of knowledge about it. I get tired of people´s blind hatred of others because they think them so narrow minded and hypocritical and yet they fail to see their responses as the same as those they hate in others.
I din´t say anything to her mainly because I was pissed and didn´t want to say anything to her in anger. I am a firm believer in being honest and opening your mouth (especially when you see another person can benefit from your perspective on an issue). Yet there are times when I just am at a loss for words because I feel people can be so prejudice or blind in some ways they just aren´t capable of a discussion. This really sucks, I would love to talk to more people about my perspective or relationship with God or other topics and yet some of the things that come out of my friends and loved ones mouth just stupifies me. I can´t say anything. They don´t really care about delving into the matter further and that is it. I don´t know how I feel about that or what my role is. Keep my mouth shut and be polite? Retort anyway because no one seems to hold their tongues to me when they have opinions? I don´t know. Perhaps I´ve said things that made people feel the same way as I do now but its just no fun not being able to talk to people about stuff and share opinions. Instead I feel like they just want to fling them in people face.
Now that I have vented have to get ready. Vera and I are going to a club tonight. It will be fun to go out dancing. I´ve got an hour to figure out what I want to do about my attire.