letter i got from Ryan
This is the letter i got from ryan, get the tissue's ready its a tearjerker.
o ya and i edited out some personal stuff, so dont be suprised if you se a ------ here or there
Alex,
I'm sorry I haven't talked to you sooner. But I couldn't. I barely have the privilege of writing this letter. I cant check my email. SO writing letters is really the only way to talk to me. I get one phone call a week for 10 minutes and two incoming phone calls for five minutes. I can only call or write the people my parents approve of. It will get easier later on to communicate with everyone, I hope.
I don't really know why I'm here. I was disrespectful to my parents just like any other teenager… I think this is an extreme overkill. I not like anyone else here. I'm passing this program… Ill try to be a perfect little kid so I can come home. The other kids here are here for drugs and sex… A couple kids have been to Juvenile Hall… and I have been disrespectful to my parents… It's really not fair.
I have to wake up every morning at seven o' clock except on weekends and I get to wake up at eight… I have a dress code and rules here are very strict. * sigh * It sucks compared to home and I cant express how much you and all my other friends. I miss talking to you, going over to your house and effing movies. I cant sleep at night because I'm thinking about how much fun it would be if I was back home. I would do so many things differently. One I wouldn't take having friends for granted. Second I would talk to ------. I keep telling myself how much I wish I told her that I liked her more than anything… she was perfect, I would have asked her to homecoming… I guess that's when I started liking her… that one night after ----- ------------- at -------'s house. * sigh * It makes me so depressed that I didn't try to have a a relationship with her… I miss her… I mean what is love…? Could I even call this love? I miss her, I miss everything about her. When I was around her I felt amazing. Whenever she hugged me I felt amazing. And now she is gone. So are you… Everything was torn away from me… my heart is broken… I've cried about all of you guts…. I cant explain or write out how much I miss you ------ and all of my friends. I mean think about how it would feel to have your friends around you die. To be stuck in a world with no one to talk to. No one to listen to you. Its just an agonizing pain that wont leave. I feel helpless, hopeless, and drained. I want you guys back… I wan to talk and listen to you again, and I want to talk to ----- again… tell her how I feel… I miss all of you. I'm lying on my bed trying to forget this pain. I'm broken and depressed. I wan to see you again. And then there is ------…. I miss getting two hours nights of sleep talking to her… I miss the feeling that no matter what she will talk to me. I miss her. She was an amazing friend. I could tell her anything she knows everything about me. And she is gone, just like everyone else. Please don't take this the wrong way, but remembering all of you guys is only causing me pain. But at the same time I know that in 6-9 months ill be back with you guys. Ill be able to talk to you guys again and hang out again… I'm tired of feeling this pain. I miss everyone there. Everyone who I know I've thought about for an amount of time. All of our plans are gone. I'm crushed. You were the best friend I could have. I could call you if I was hurt or hang out with you anytime. Let me try to take a break from all this sadness… Maybe try to talk about something else.
Well there is 12 guys in the school… there is girls here but we are not aloud to talk to see them… I haven't seen of talked to a girl in 27 days. Its sad. Don't be surprised if when I get back, I go crazy when I see a girl. J Out of the 12 guys I was elected president which means I can pass and make new laws about the academy. I guess its cool…
Oh. We went to a church up here in Kanab, Utah… and it SUCKED. The preacher was bias and over reactive. The band consisted of two 60+ year old ladies playing guitar and a 16 year old guy playing bass… He was wearing a "The Used" t-shirt… Weird church… The population of people here in Kanab, Utah is mainly consisted of old people. Everyone here hates us. By everyone, I mean the population of Kanab citizens. They try to get us in trouble. One time we went to a playground and three of us got on the roof and a cop pulls up in his car and gets off and tells us to come here. He tells us we shouldn't climb on the playground. One kid named Mark asked the cop if he was going to arrest us. The cop says, "Shut up Smart Ass…" I'm not kidding…. And then the cop calls in for backup… A couple of minutes later another cop comes… and talks about how he has been on the force for 30 years… blah blah blah… and says we are a bunch of brats for climbing on the playground… By the way both cops have their hands on their tazer guns! Yeah effing tazer guns. I'm trying to not laugh in front of the cop… because he will probably zap me with his gun… The cop threatened to arrest us and then band is from the park… So the moral of the story is… cops here are assholes… and everyone hates us L
I have taken a couple trips up here in Utah… I've been to the grand canyon… which was really really cool… I got up on the cliff off the ledge and got a picture taken. I couldn't climb down the ledge so I jumped off the ledge… 10 foot drop… and sprained my ankle! Yes go ryan… ahh I'm such a klutz… Ive also been to these 100+ foot sand dunes… and we all brought card bored to slide down the hills… but it didn't work… so I dived down the hill with Josh… after the ten minutes of flipping a falling down a sand covered hill we hit the bottom and Josh has sand in his eyes… I have sand in some places im not going to talk about… but it was fun I guess…
Oh oh! A group of 8 of us is designing an online game!!! MMORPG of course. Its called "Realm of Velencia" and its really cool. The school said they would give us any hardware software we needed… so we asked for $4000 worth of software, a couple computers… a server… a scanner, printer, tablet and usb flash drives… The website will be up in a month or so… Ill make sure I give you the website when its online. The game will be mostly done when I get back. The graphics are kind of a mix between Ragnarok online and FFXI… If im not working on the game im working at school.
I am required to do four hours of school a day. The classes are self paced. I work out of little booklets. It's really easy. Im 50% done with Lang arts and 25% done with physics after I finish the books I get my credits… Ill finish my junior year and stop… even though if I wanted to I could finish both my 11 and 12 grade years here. I want to spend my last part of the junior year at northview and my senior year also. I surprisingly want a teacher… but we cant have one… I am my own teacher -_-.
Its almost been a month and im depressed. I will be hoem for thanksgiving for a week or less!!!! So tell everyone to stay here for thanksgiving. I cant wait to see you. Oh and ------!!! OMG I wan tot see her so so so bad. I don't know if ive said this yet but I like her so much… J * sigh * damn its getting late… 3 o'clock in th emorning. And I cant sleep because I cant stop thinking about you guys… Make sure you tell everyone that I miss them. I cant say how much I miss them. Tell haley that I miss our long night talks with no sleep and listen to her. Tell ------- that I miss her an amazingly huge amount. If I was with her now… hmmm…. I would give her a huge hug… haha… Alex I miss my best friend a lot. You really mean a lot to me. You're a great friend.
Its up to you who can read this note… maybe Andrew… and Katie… and haley… and um… anyone else who you want to let see this…as long a ----- and ----- get their messages. Tell anyone who I didn't name by name in theis note that I miss them a lot even if I didn't mention them.
I guess all I can say is im broken, sad, and depressed that I don't get to see you at school or hang out…
Ryan
Ps. Tell me how everyone is doing… Andrew and the girlfriend :D Katie… you… Joel… Haley… and anyone else… * sigh *
OH GOOD LUCK AT HOMECOMMING! Haha nice pick for a date! I hope you have fun and no sex… o,O
-YOU NEVER NO HOW MUCH YOU HAVE UNTILL ITS GONE-
o ya and i edited out some personal stuff, so dont be suprised if you se a ------ here or there
Alex,
I'm sorry I haven't talked to you sooner. But I couldn't. I barely have the privilege of writing this letter. I cant check my email. SO writing letters is really the only way to talk to me. I get one phone call a week for 10 minutes and two incoming phone calls for five minutes. I can only call or write the people my parents approve of. It will get easier later on to communicate with everyone, I hope.
I don't really know why I'm here. I was disrespectful to my parents just like any other teenager… I think this is an extreme overkill. I not like anyone else here. I'm passing this program… Ill try to be a perfect little kid so I can come home. The other kids here are here for drugs and sex… A couple kids have been to Juvenile Hall… and I have been disrespectful to my parents… It's really not fair.
I have to wake up every morning at seven o' clock except on weekends and I get to wake up at eight… I have a dress code and rules here are very strict. * sigh * It sucks compared to home and I cant express how much you and all my other friends. I miss talking to you, going over to your house and effing movies. I cant sleep at night because I'm thinking about how much fun it would be if I was back home. I would do so many things differently. One I wouldn't take having friends for granted. Second I would talk to ------. I keep telling myself how much I wish I told her that I liked her more than anything… she was perfect, I would have asked her to homecoming… I guess that's when I started liking her… that one night after ----- ------------- at -------'s house. * sigh * It makes me so depressed that I didn't try to have a a relationship with her… I miss her… I mean what is love…? Could I even call this love? I miss her, I miss everything about her. When I was around her I felt amazing. Whenever she hugged me I felt amazing. And now she is gone. So are you… Everything was torn away from me… my heart is broken… I've cried about all of you guts…. I cant explain or write out how much I miss you ------ and all of my friends. I mean think about how it would feel to have your friends around you die. To be stuck in a world with no one to talk to. No one to listen to you. Its just an agonizing pain that wont leave. I feel helpless, hopeless, and drained. I want you guys back… I wan to talk and listen to you again, and I want to talk to ----- again… tell her how I feel… I miss all of you. I'm lying on my bed trying to forget this pain. I'm broken and depressed. I wan to see you again. And then there is ------…. I miss getting two hours nights of sleep talking to her… I miss the feeling that no matter what she will talk to me. I miss her. She was an amazing friend. I could tell her anything she knows everything about me. And she is gone, just like everyone else. Please don't take this the wrong way, but remembering all of you guys is only causing me pain. But at the same time I know that in 6-9 months ill be back with you guys. Ill be able to talk to you guys again and hang out again… I'm tired of feeling this pain. I miss everyone there. Everyone who I know I've thought about for an amount of time. All of our plans are gone. I'm crushed. You were the best friend I could have. I could call you if I was hurt or hang out with you anytime. Let me try to take a break from all this sadness… Maybe try to talk about something else.
Well there is 12 guys in the school… there is girls here but we are not aloud to talk to see them… I haven't seen of talked to a girl in 27 days. Its sad. Don't be surprised if when I get back, I go crazy when I see a girl. J Out of the 12 guys I was elected president which means I can pass and make new laws about the academy. I guess its cool…
Oh. We went to a church up here in Kanab, Utah… and it SUCKED. The preacher was bias and over reactive. The band consisted of two 60+ year old ladies playing guitar and a 16 year old guy playing bass… He was wearing a "The Used" t-shirt… Weird church… The population of people here in Kanab, Utah is mainly consisted of old people. Everyone here hates us. By everyone, I mean the population of Kanab citizens. They try to get us in trouble. One time we went to a playground and three of us got on the roof and a cop pulls up in his car and gets off and tells us to come here. He tells us we shouldn't climb on the playground. One kid named Mark asked the cop if he was going to arrest us. The cop says, "Shut up Smart Ass…" I'm not kidding…. And then the cop calls in for backup… A couple of minutes later another cop comes… and talks about how he has been on the force for 30 years… blah blah blah… and says we are a bunch of brats for climbing on the playground… By the way both cops have their hands on their tazer guns! Yeah effing tazer guns. I'm trying to not laugh in front of the cop… because he will probably zap me with his gun… The cop threatened to arrest us and then band is from the park… So the moral of the story is… cops here are assholes… and everyone hates us L
I have taken a couple trips up here in Utah… I've been to the grand canyon… which was really really cool… I got up on the cliff off the ledge and got a picture taken. I couldn't climb down the ledge so I jumped off the ledge… 10 foot drop… and sprained my ankle! Yes go ryan… ahh I'm such a klutz… Ive also been to these 100+ foot sand dunes… and we all brought card bored to slide down the hills… but it didn't work… so I dived down the hill with Josh… after the ten minutes of flipping a falling down a sand covered hill we hit the bottom and Josh has sand in his eyes… I have sand in some places im not going to talk about… but it was fun I guess…
Oh oh! A group of 8 of us is designing an online game!!! MMORPG of course. Its called "Realm of Velencia" and its really cool. The school said they would give us any hardware software we needed… so we asked for $4000 worth of software, a couple computers… a server… a scanner, printer, tablet and usb flash drives… The website will be up in a month or so… Ill make sure I give you the website when its online. The game will be mostly done when I get back. The graphics are kind of a mix between Ragnarok online and FFXI… If im not working on the game im working at school.
I am required to do four hours of school a day. The classes are self paced. I work out of little booklets. It's really easy. Im 50% done with Lang arts and 25% done with physics after I finish the books I get my credits… Ill finish my junior year and stop… even though if I wanted to I could finish both my 11 and 12 grade years here. I want to spend my last part of the junior year at northview and my senior year also. I surprisingly want a teacher… but we cant have one… I am my own teacher -_-.
Its almost been a month and im depressed. I will be hoem for thanksgiving for a week or less!!!! So tell everyone to stay here for thanksgiving. I cant wait to see you. Oh and ------!!! OMG I wan tot see her so so so bad. I don't know if ive said this yet but I like her so much… J * sigh * damn its getting late… 3 o'clock in th emorning. And I cant sleep because I cant stop thinking about you guys… Make sure you tell everyone that I miss them. I cant say how much I miss them. Tell haley that I miss our long night talks with no sleep and listen to her. Tell ------- that I miss her an amazingly huge amount. If I was with her now… hmmm…. I would give her a huge hug… haha… Alex I miss my best friend a lot. You really mean a lot to me. You're a great friend.
Its up to you who can read this note… maybe Andrew… and Katie… and haley… and um… anyone else who you want to let see this…as long a ----- and ----- get their messages. Tell anyone who I didn't name by name in theis note that I miss them a lot even if I didn't mention them.
I guess all I can say is im broken, sad, and depressed that I don't get to see you at school or hang out…
Ryan
Ps. Tell me how everyone is doing… Andrew and the girlfriend :D Katie… you… Joel… Haley… and anyone else… * sigh *
OH GOOD LUCK AT HOMECOMMING! Haha nice pick for a date! I hope you have fun and no sex… o,O
-YOU NEVER NO HOW MUCH YOU HAVE UNTILL ITS GONE-