Dec 21, 2004 04:32
I hate this... no matter how hard I try, I can never do things right. I try so hard to make everyone happy, including myself, and I always end up hurting someone in the end.
I've hurt so many people... I think I've added another on to the list, now.
I feel some I'm sorrys are in order...
Sarina- I'm sorry... I love you so much, but... I don't know what I think. You are probably the person closest like myself that I'll ever meet in my life. We have so many similar interests and its a wonder we aren't sharing the same mind. But... I don't know what I feel for you. I'm having a hard time determining if maybe it really would be love or if it's just a very very strong friendship... I hate the idea of knowing you're hurting.
Kaed- I know love you... I always have. I just wish my heart weren't being torn apart like taffy. I know I hurt you... I know I made you upset. If I could take all that back, I would... I just hope that somewhere inside, that maybe Mae will be able to help fix up the things I might have messed up.
Joulaim- I always felt like you were my everything, since I met you. I wish my heart wasn't so easy to falter from its path. This is why crushes are so dangerous to me. You've already been more kind to me than anyone I've ever met... I want to be loyal to you. I want to show you how much I love you. I can never repay that to you.
Sasha- So most probably wouldn't expect me to put a post about you here, but I'm going to. I'm sorry I was less than what you expected me to be, but you're forgetting, I'm still at least part angel, meaning I can see things... Sasha, you still love me, I know you do, and even though you were mean to me, I still feel terrible for any pain or discomfort I caused upon you.
That is all...