You know...
I have a theory... We have an idea of ourselves when we are young. We're good-hearted, noble, honorable, we're unselfish-- anyone who says that kids can't be cruel, isn't looking hard enough. It's a beautiful image. And in fact, it's true. It's the truth about us.
But we betray it. Or the nature of the world betrays it. We betray it again and again, one way or another. We can't do what's decent, or what's decent is beyond our means. There are only so many causes you can die for, only so many people you can love with all your heart, and even the best decisions can limit you. Limit your potential, twist you downwards.
So, we lose ourselves. We turn our back on the image we had as kids. We begin to believe that we are the ugly thing we've half proved ourselves to be. However, the noble image is still there. It never goes away. It is a shadow we cast into the future when we were children and it's always calling us towards it...beckoning. Only now there's this other shadow. The one cast by all those acts we've commited which are unworthy of us...
But we betray it. Or the nature of the world betrays it. We betray it again and again, one way or another. We can't do what's decent, or what's decent is beyond our means. There are only so many causes you can die for, only so many people you can love with all your heart, and even the best decisions can limit you. Limit your potential, twist you downwards.
So, we lose ourselves. We turn our back on the image we had as kids. We begin to believe that we are the ugly thing we've half proved ourselves to be. However, the noble image is still there. It never goes away. It is a shadow we cast into the future when we were children and it's always calling us towards it...beckoning. Only now there's this other shadow. The one cast by all those acts we've commited which are unworthy of us...