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I'm coming to terms with the fact that my health sucks b-u-t-t.
Apparently arthritis has weakened my immune system in such a way that my doctor thinks I have cellulitis. One of my ear lobes is 2-3 times the size of the other and is super-red all around. It's pretty attractive, let me tell you. =)
Other aspects of my health are weakening and causing problems and could potentially snowball into serious things, but I don't really care so much. With all my sarcasm aside, I'm really okay with all this. I can finally actually put my trust in God here, because really, worst case scenario can't really be so terrible.
This summer has probably been the best summer of my life. I've watched a meteor shower, gotten to actually really bond with extended family, became a cool enough older cousin to be invited to my little cousins' VIP No-Adults party, ate Party Time ice cream like there's no tomorrow, went to IKEA (twice!), went clubbing for the first time, got free Kung Fu Panda AND a Wall-E posters, experienced Savannah Georgia.. and most importantly came to huge realizations about myself--
I want children. From my experiences working at Regal and Target this summer, I've done a lot of family-watching, and sometimes it flat-out breaks my heart. I used to say I want 3 kids, but I'm considering even 4. Way too many kids don't realize the awesome potential they have-- or even how awesome they are now, as kids. I'm not going to spoil my kids, but damn, they're going to know they can accomplish anything in the world they want to. There is no cap.
Only a year ago, I kind of borderline hated children. Maybe it's maternal instinct kicking in, but I am completely obsessed with the idea of helping kids. I've entirely reconsidered my career path. I've wondered if I should become an elementary school teacher instead. And honestly, I STILL don't know if I'm making the right choice. I love making animations.. but is that the most important thing here? What about once I have a family? I don't want them to ever be given second-priority to work. I think my plan is now to keep pursuing what I'm doing, and get my degree. I'll work in my field, but somewhere in my life, I'm probably going to take a break from it.
Maybe I'll teach English in a foreign country. Or just become an elementary teacher in the good ol USA. Or both!
The only major thing I need to do before going back to Ringling is finding delicious frosted animal cookies. Then summer would be perfection. =)
Apparently arthritis has weakened my immune system in such a way that my doctor thinks I have cellulitis. One of my ear lobes is 2-3 times the size of the other and is super-red all around. It's pretty attractive, let me tell you. =)
Other aspects of my health are weakening and causing problems and could potentially snowball into serious things, but I don't really care so much. With all my sarcasm aside, I'm really okay with all this. I can finally actually put my trust in God here, because really, worst case scenario can't really be so terrible.
This summer has probably been the best summer of my life. I've watched a meteor shower, gotten to actually really bond with extended family, became a cool enough older cousin to be invited to my little cousins' VIP No-Adults party, ate Party Time ice cream like there's no tomorrow, went to IKEA (twice!), went clubbing for the first time, got free Kung Fu Panda AND a Wall-E posters, experienced Savannah Georgia.. and most importantly came to huge realizations about myself--
I want children. From my experiences working at Regal and Target this summer, I've done a lot of family-watching, and sometimes it flat-out breaks my heart. I used to say I want 3 kids, but I'm considering even 4. Way too many kids don't realize the awesome potential they have-- or even how awesome they are now, as kids. I'm not going to spoil my kids, but damn, they're going to know they can accomplish anything in the world they want to. There is no cap.
Only a year ago, I kind of borderline hated children. Maybe it's maternal instinct kicking in, but I am completely obsessed with the idea of helping kids. I've entirely reconsidered my career path. I've wondered if I should become an elementary school teacher instead. And honestly, I STILL don't know if I'm making the right choice. I love making animations.. but is that the most important thing here? What about once I have a family? I don't want them to ever be given second-priority to work. I think my plan is now to keep pursuing what I'm doing, and get my degree. I'll work in my field, but somewhere in my life, I'm probably going to take a break from it.
Maybe I'll teach English in a foreign country. Or just become an elementary teacher in the good ol USA. Or both!
The only major thing I need to do before going back to Ringling is finding delicious frosted animal cookies. Then summer would be perfection. =)