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Hi all, things have been going okay. I saw my blood doctor and my regular doctor and I have found that the aclues tendon on my right foot is in real bad shape so I have to go to Pt. What Next??? If the Pt. doesn't help then I will have to have surgery and that is not an option.
About Rick, well I don't plan on breaking up with him but at this point in our relationship I feel like I am spinning my wheels. It has been three years and I feel like a weekend girl friend. He has not done anything to make a commitment and that bothers me. I do not like feeling used. He doesn't mind having all the things that go with a relationship but I think he dose not want the commitment of a relationship cause if he did in my view he would have done something by now, and he hasn't.
I will go to my mom's and go back to school and get my life back again and if he wants to be a part of it it has to be all or nothing I can't keep this up, I am getting to sad and I don't like it. I love him and I know he loves me but I must think of me for now and let him make the moves and if he don't then there is nothing I can do about it I guess I will just move on even though it will hurt.
The kids are out of school and I will be getting a new car in the next few weeks so I will have to show you what I am getting cause I am not sure what it will be yet. I would still like you and Jess to come and see me if Rick and I drift apart. I don't want to but I have a feeling that that is what is going to happen and this makes me very sad, I cry a lot about this and I don't want to.
I hope to see you Ashley when you come up and I hope that Jess will be here too. I enjoyed out talks and had lots of fun when you all were here I hope that dosen't change. Ashley tell your mom good luck with the baby and I am so happy for her and I send my prayers for a happy healthy baby boy or girl.
best wishes and love
Mama Tata