...were just ordinary people...
so ive been thinking alot lately about just random shit....
i was supposed to come home on thursday. it was going to be my big surprise to a bunch of people that i really miss. im super upset i didnt come home. i really wnated to be home, but really it wasnt that it was more like i didnt want to be here this weekend. holloween is the second biggest party weekend in tallahasee, the first biggest party weekend in tally is homecomming weekend. well guess what, its homecomming and holoween weekend. and yeah i should be excited about it but all my school spirit is gone. because the person who got me my SEMINOLE spirt is the one person who took everything else away from me. he hurt me in ways that i never thought someone could and even though there is only a minute chance he will ask for my friendship back, i will never forgive him for any of this. i dont want to run into him at a party and i dont want to hear his harrasing phone calls. i want it to end and the weekends are the only times i have to worry about all of this...
on the other hand ive been thinking bout my person at home. and how much i love him. and i have to admit one day i was questioning my love. because i remeber when i was 13 and i said i loved him and i really did. and i still do now. but is it the same love? im not the same person and neither is he. but then i realized that it didnt matter that we both have changed, it doesnt matter that we are differnt people because i still love him for who he is now and the only problem isnt that we have grow apart its that there is 500 miles between us and we cant be that far apart.
thats all for now...its already been a crazy weekened and partying doesnt end until monday night...woah ill update later...