Confessions of a Shopaholic.
I am an eternal optimistic. I have always been. But today it seems to be gone. I don't know why.
If you follow my stories on LJ you know I was supposed to be in Vancouver by now. Supposed to be. But something happened almost a week ago now. I, as planned, went to Vancouver last Friday. Had a change of flight with three different flights. One from Paris to D.C, the other from D.C to San Francisco, and finally San Francisco to Vancouver. I arrived okay to Vancouver, until I was arrested by the Canadian customs.
They search my suitcase (or turned it upside down, I should say), search my emails, and even my LJ and my twitter. It was really crazy. According to them I was illegale because I was coming as aupair and had the wrong Visa. I can understand that. What I do not understand it's why they treated me like I was some kind of drug mule or something. Come on, I was only there to watch kids!
Long story short, they sent me back to Paris two days later, and I can't go to Canada for a year.
I was a little depressed at first, very disapointed too. But then, as optimistic as I am, I told myself it was okay. I am only 21, I have plenty of time to travel. Which is true. Then I went through this shopaholic phase. Bought the new BlackBerry Torch, two skirts, one dress, two tops, about 5 DVDs, 2 books, and upgrated my LJ account. All of that in only two days. Made me feel better at the time..
But today, I realized. Even though I am young, blah blah blah, have time to travel blah blah blah. I wanted to do it yesterday already! I wanted to go to L.A this summer. I wanted to see the world. I am so sick of Paris. Furthermore, since I don't go back to school till October, I feel like I don't have anything to wake up to in a morning, to look forward to. I don't know what to do with all this free time. It's kind of pathetic. I always had a GOAL.
I feel sort of lost without my optimism.
Yes, I still have my friends, my family, etc. But something is missing.
Maybe I'll feel better tomorrow. But for now, don't ever talk to me about plane, canada or aupair anymore. I'm done