Feeling better
Well, I just had a huge day, from three classes to finishing everything for Neal's piece, to having Dress Rehearsal for Neal's piece, to actually having dinner tonight (a novelty, compared to most nights), then teching for a dance piece. I'm really tired, but I'm doing a lot better. I emailed Joe a couple days ago, since I wanted to touch base with him. He didn't email me back until this morning, but I didn't get it. I saw him at work call tonight though, and things were good. We're still friends, good friends, but we both realize that we're going to have to redefine our relationship to each other. I'm feeling a lot better, and I think I snapped out of the funk last night, when I finally felt like I was being pathetic. I kind of snapped out of it and realized I was being pathetic, although I know I wasn't really. It was warranted at the time, but the time passed. Now I'm not quite embarrassed about wallowing in pain, but I'm over it. Things aren't quite groovy and spectacular, but I'm getting along fine. I still miss having a boyfriend, because that was really special, and a level of friendship that I've never had before, someone to lean on and talk to, someone to call whenever, someone to look forward to. Now I understand the whole concept of rebound. I feel like I could attach onto anyone because I'm craving that connection. Once I know what I was missing, now it's hard to go without it. I feel like I shouldn't get into another relationship for a little bit though, but it might be hard, since I now feel like I have an empty hole inside me. Oh well, no one is in line for a relationship, so all is well as of yet.
Tomorrow is theater day, from regular hours to teching the dance piece to OPENING NIGHT. Hey you guys, come on up to Swarthmore to see my design piece. I'm the lighting designer but also credited as set designer. It's 7 pm Friday Saturday and Sunday, as well as 10pm on Saturday (2 performances). It's only 50 minutes long, Neal's a superb actor, and it's a one man show about his life, self-written. Come on up and we'll hang out.
Tomorrow is theater day, from regular hours to teching the dance piece to OPENING NIGHT. Hey you guys, come on up to Swarthmore to see my design piece. I'm the lighting designer but also credited as set designer. It's 7 pm Friday Saturday and Sunday, as well as 10pm on Saturday (2 performances). It's only 50 minutes long, Neal's a superb actor, and it's a one man show about his life, self-written. Come on up and we'll hang out.