Not doing well
Getting tired. Takes lots of energy to supress and contain the Agony so I can take care of "arrangements."
In the ultimate rebellion I am insisting on presiding over the service myself. Nobody else is really qualified, imo. Nobody else with any speaking experience knew him. Many of his friends would be offended by a standard Christian funeral since most of them, like Stephen himself, hold alternate beliefs. I plan to accomodate the Christian family elders, but daaaamn this is a fight. Nobody seems to realize that that sort of participation will keep me from being too fragile to cope. If I crater during the service (not that likely if I'm busy) I have a friend who will carry on for me. The clergy simply feels threatend, I think.
In the ultimate rebellion I am insisting on presiding over the service myself. Nobody else is really qualified, imo. Nobody else with any speaking experience knew him. Many of his friends would be offended by a standard Christian funeral since most of them, like Stephen himself, hold alternate beliefs. I plan to accomodate the Christian family elders, but daaaamn this is a fight. Nobody seems to realize that that sort of participation will keep me from being too fragile to cope. If I crater during the service (not that likely if I'm busy) I have a friend who will carry on for me. The clergy simply feels threatend, I think.