❥ 16 [video]

[feelslikegaga]

[The video flickers on to show Kurt standing in his room, hands clasped in front of him, a somber and tired expression on his face.]I know some of you are sick of all the singing we've been doing in the past few weeks, and I know we've been ridiculed and looked down on because of it

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[showchoirstar]

[Normally, Rachel listens with clasped hands and a bright smile, whenever Kurt sings, because... it's always beautiful and perfect and flawless and Rachel adores it.

This week? This face.

Unimpressed..]

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[feelslikegaga]

[He's eying the feed for a moment, trying to see if there's anything under that expression, anything of his friend. Someone he... desperately needs right now.

But, of course, there's nothing. So, he just sighs.]

Its actually pretty simple to just turn the PCD off if you hear something you so obviously dislike, Rachel.

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[showchoirstar]

[Aren't you so glad Rachel stuck with you band of losers instead of chasing the fame and stardom everyone tells her she deserves?

Rachel examines her nails before she sighs to herself.]

I never said I disliked it.

It simply wasn't as good as it could be.

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[feelslikegaga]

[And with that, Kurt snaps]

And, of course, that can only be if you sang it, am I right?

Honestly, Rachel, I don't really care what you thought about it right now. That wasn't a performance. So long as my point got across to at least one person, that's all that matters.

But I doubt you could understand that. Or even appreciate it. There is more to singing than the technical aspect. I'd rather hear someone sing with heart and crack a note than sing it like... like an exercise or something.

So just leave it, Berry.

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[showchoirstar]

If it wasn't a performance, then why did you air it?

[She doesn't seem bothered by Kurt's attitude. In fact, she almost looks entertained.

She and Jesse didn't air their performance of A Little Fall of Rain for a reason, after all.]

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[feelslikegaga]

To try and reach a few of the people here.

[He sighs, reaching up a hand to rub at his face a little, suddenly feeling so tired.]

Obviously, some of you are just beyond help by now.

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[showchoirstar]

If they can't stay out of the way, then what's the point of reaching out to them?

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[feelslikegaga]

Not everything is about competition.

You may have your cardboard cutout boyfriend, but how many friends do you have?

I'd bet my entire tiara collection on that answer being none.

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[showchoirstar]

I have plenty, actually. We're going to Los Angeles for Spring Break upon my return from this utter wasteland.

[Rachel is now one of the most popular people in the entire school. Friends? Maybe not, but she has people worshiping her, in a way that Quinn Fabray could never achieve.]

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[feelslikegaga]

And how many people actually know you, Rachel? That is, if there's even anything left to know.

[He doesn't mean any of this, and hopefully Rachel will actually realize that once the week ends. He's just... tired. So tired and worried and stressed and damnit he wants Rachel back. The old Rachel. The one who would urge him to smile during performances, would wrap him up in inappropriately bone-crushing hugs.

Who would tease and goad him about his relationship with Blaine, who could come and challenge him to epic Diva-offs over the stupidest, silliest things. Hell, he even missed those stupid sweaters of hers. And the loafers... and... damnit, even those tacky tights.]

I doubt we'll get released from here. So you might as well get over yourself and start getting comfortable.

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[showchoirstar]

Jesse knows me inside and out.

[With a mild hum, as she tucks a loose strand of hair behind her ear.]

As do my friends, thank you very much. Just because I don't wear my heart on my sleeve doesn't mean I have nothing to show.

[Rachel is just going to ignore that last part because fuck off she's going to LA. 8(]