For lastvoyages: Journal Entry 28 [video+spam]

[feels_no_love]

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[fanged_aleera]

Make him return.

He his young... You still possess your will.

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[feels_no_love]

[His voice comes out an enraged snarl.] I cannot. All my power to control others has been stripped from me since I came to this accursed place. I've never done a bit of harm here but they will not return what is rightfully mine...and because of that I cannot even keep my own newborns under control!

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[fanged_aleera]

[Oh, now... This is news to her - and explains much of why influence hasn't been exerted since arrival. Have some astonished disbelief.]

What...?

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[feels_no_love]

They have stripped me of so much of what is mine by rights that I barely know myself! Do you think I would have forgotten to exert my will once he attacked me? I don't have the strength! Look at how long it is taking me to heal!

Curse this place and those in authority here....

[19centconstable]

Sir! I'm going to have to ask you to calm down this instant. Inciting a panic helps no one, nor will suggestions of mob violence!

[feels_no_love]

Oh shut up you brainless mortal, I just couldn't work the privacy filters with my damned eyes torn out!

[19centconstable]

Whether you intended this to be seen by one person or by everyone makes no difference: an unconscious man will stop just as quickly as a dead one. I'm sure I don't need to explain to you what a cornered animal can do.

I would also like you to consider how you would feel should anyone be hurt in an attempt to avenge you, before suggesting which of us ought to be shutting their mouths here, sir.

[feels_no_love]

[incoherent snarling] You sanctimonious, self-righteous clown...I don't have time for this or you! Leave me be!

[feels_no_love]

I already...tried that...he is gone. He must be contained.

[feels_no_love]

I wasn't encouraging anyone!

Oh, to Hell with this. I should never have called for help from you damned mortals. I should have dealt with this all myself!

private - a lot later.

[iam_aghost]

Mr Dracula, how are you?

Could I have a word?

private - a lot later.

[feels_no_love]

[Dracula switches on the feed. His face looks scarred and his eyes pale, but he's healing. He is sitting down in Zero, keeping Hoffman company.]

Now that it is over I am considerably better. This trouble was never my desire.

By all means, continue.

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[iam_aghost]

[Caesares still winces a touch. Ow.]

I'm glad things have improved.

I'm aware that... you were hurt whilst trying to calm Mr Hoffman down, which is commendable in itself, but I must offer you some apologies. As I am a little concerned the information - or lack of information - I could give him might have contributed to what it did.

As one of those affected, I can only give you my sincerest regrets for your suffering.

private - a lot later.

[feels_no_love]

...

Doctor, you were placed in a very bad position by all of this. I understand the need for confidentiality.

In honesty you are far less at fault than I. I can say this now that I have calmed. I gave him the blood when he was not emotionally ready to handle it. I gave him the blood in the hope that it would heal him when he was too close to death. And when his Warden was in your care, I thought I could handle him alone.

I have paid for it. I continue to do so. [Grim little smile] I am not happy, but...this is all necessary.

I merely wish...ah, the interconnectedness of people. Had Mr. Lupin not been harmed, Hoffman would have been all right. I think that the true trigger of his violence, the thing that broke his back, was not your feather or my brick, but that anvil.

Laaate private audio

[darknessb4me]

[Long pause.]

Your gift?

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[feels_no_love]

An accidental gift I was determined to take responsibility for. But yes, the power came from me.

Laaate private audio

[darknessb4me]

I know the feeling.

Is this a normal reaction?

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[feels_no_love]

No. Normally I have control over my young ones and can help them through this period of extreme moodiness and bloodlust.