When you shut out pain, you shut out everything else.

[feelmypain]

I haven't updated this thing in the longest. I know I seem to have vanished from the face of the earth, but I'm still here... alive and surviving this so-called life of mine. The past weeks have been physically, spiritually, and most of all, emotionally exhausting. I laughed and I cried... I smiled and frowned. There's no winning at this life. It's really just a matter of surviving. Well, I'm trying. *sighs* I'm trying not to let my recent problems, failures, and disappointments depressed me much. I'm trying to be strong... keeping my head up. I must say for the record that my Mom is my constant biggest inspiration. I seriously don't know what I'd do if she wasn't around. It has to be frustrating for her to see the life I'm leading, but despite of it, she's still very understanding and supportive. I'm forever grateful for her love.

The other day, I saw a family friend whom I haven't seen in like a year. She said I look "matured" now. This was comin' from a woman who used to say I have such a "baby" face. Although I took it as a good thing. I think I needed to hear that. It is true after all. Maybe for once I'm finally growing up. Haha

P.S.
I miss everyone!