slide your nail under the top and bottom buttons of my blazer

[feellikeflippin]

yesterday i went to some christmas party in this place that is scarily rich...its behind a gate...the houses are huge and it looks like beverly hills...its scary...they also had no sidewalk...what is that supposed to mean? i was jealous and not at the same time....i realized even though the houses were gorgeous...theres really nothing to do around there "behind the gate" as they call it. do they even know their neighbors? well i guess it was interesting...i talked to this girl who was really pretty...she has that really sexy kinda mysterious look...that i could never have...no matter what i always look like some kind of rabbit or something that you just pat on the head...well she lives a life of not doing homework, smoking, drinking,partying, and "hooking up with guys". sounds interesting i suppose...sometimes i get bored with myself and i wonder what i could do to make myself more interesting... maybe some people are just boring? like knitting?

o yes...and just so people can hate me even more...not so silent night was good...what happened to taking back sunday though?

ive also decided charitable work is not for me...whether its being nice to old people...selling stuff that clogs your arteries...collecting change...staying up until all hours packaging shit...or wraping useless stuff.......maybe im just a money whore and self centered? im sorry...i just cant say "yay" to it and put smiley faces all over it...like some.