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I've not been updating recently, and that is because I have not had anything happy to say, and I've decided that I don't like coming here and complaining about my life. I would much rather just read about all of you guys, I find it much more interesting.
So, my complaining is probably gonna be about the same as usual.. I very much dislike WHAP and Ms. Whoreface.... I mean Dembin....... I'm not going to get to run outdoor track which makes me frown. I have been wanting to cry, but have been keeping myself from doing so by laughing, or pretending that my problems don't bother me.. If someone brings something up, I'll just try to brush it aside.
I think I'm going to snap when I realize.. when it happens.. when I can't go to track anymore. I think that the laughter might just turn into uncontrollable tears. I miss being happy.. I miss spending time with the people I care about.. I guess I just miss life. I want to have fun again.. I want to be able to stop counting, and I'm worried that if it keeps up for much longer.. well, I don't know.. I might end up doing something stupid.
I WANT TO LIVE!
One day last week, I was happy, and for NO reason. I felt so good. It was bliss, and I had forgotten what that was.
I only have one midterm left, and its English, so it should be cake. Then we have a three day weekend, and the only plan that I have is to get slurpees sometime on Sunday. I am open to other plans.. plans of any sort, I just want to get away.