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Okay.
So I'm really not doing anything right now that I should be doing. I cannot BELIEVE that I STILL have not started exercising regularly yet. I don't know how I let myself do this. I've gone through this before, so I should understand. And this is SO important. I don't understand.
I woke up this morning at 7:45 so I could get up and run at 8:00. I bought an MP3 player to help me and everything but I made up some excuse for why I didn't need to/shouldn't run that early. I am amazing at making excuses. Seriously, the best. I can excuse my way out of anything that I don't want to do (to myself, anyway). And they are all so good and reasonable, that I just can't say no to myself.
I wish I had the motivation. NOBODY is holding me accountable right now. Nobody is on my back telling me what to do and when to do it, and I'm just not good at motivating myself. When I'm not ready come August 24th, I'm going to be so... I don't know. I can't even express what it'll be like if I'm not ready. And things aren't looking good.
I also have a lot of room cleaning to do. My mom was nice enough to go out of her way to clean most of my terribly messy room while I was having fun in Orlando and I can't even keep it up or clean the rest of it. I'm really a terrible daughter. And a terrible student, as I will realize again come Fall.
I sleep a lot.
I wish I had something interesting to write about in here. But I just kind of feel like venting (again).
- I tried to play a game this morning and it wouldn't work (yeah, stupid, but it still annoyed me)
- I heard about a party tonight and I was supposed to get a call about it but haven't yet
- Justin left for Gainesville yesterday on the ONE weekend that I have Friday night AND Saturday night off. He'll be back Saturday night, maybe.
- I wish I could've spent time with Elyse on her birthday yesterday, but I went to Tampa because I guess her other friends, that she's really close to and that I don't know very well, were going to the beach with her. I thought she was going to do something fun tonight with a lot of people, but I guess not. Like, she's still doing something, I just don't know what it is.
- I forget what I was going to write in this one.
What a boring stupid entry. I only feel like writing in this when I'm pissed off and have nobody to talk to.
So I'm really not doing anything right now that I should be doing. I cannot BELIEVE that I STILL have not started exercising regularly yet. I don't know how I let myself do this. I've gone through this before, so I should understand. And this is SO important. I don't understand.
I woke up this morning at 7:45 so I could get up and run at 8:00. I bought an MP3 player to help me and everything but I made up some excuse for why I didn't need to/shouldn't run that early. I am amazing at making excuses. Seriously, the best. I can excuse my way out of anything that I don't want to do (to myself, anyway). And they are all so good and reasonable, that I just can't say no to myself.
I wish I had the motivation. NOBODY is holding me accountable right now. Nobody is on my back telling me what to do and when to do it, and I'm just not good at motivating myself. When I'm not ready come August 24th, I'm going to be so... I don't know. I can't even express what it'll be like if I'm not ready. And things aren't looking good.
I also have a lot of room cleaning to do. My mom was nice enough to go out of her way to clean most of my terribly messy room while I was having fun in Orlando and I can't even keep it up or clean the rest of it. I'm really a terrible daughter. And a terrible student, as I will realize again come Fall.
I sleep a lot.
I wish I had something interesting to write about in here. But I just kind of feel like venting (again).
- I tried to play a game this morning and it wouldn't work (yeah, stupid, but it still annoyed me)
- I heard about a party tonight and I was supposed to get a call about it but haven't yet
- Justin left for Gainesville yesterday on the ONE weekend that I have Friday night AND Saturday night off. He'll be back Saturday night, maybe.
- I wish I could've spent time with Elyse on her birthday yesterday, but I went to Tampa because I guess her other friends, that she's really close to and that I don't know very well, were going to the beach with her. I thought she was going to do something fun tonight with a lot of people, but I guess not. Like, she's still doing something, I just don't know what it is.
- I forget what I was going to write in this one.
What a boring stupid entry. I only feel like writing in this when I'm pissed off and have nobody to talk to.