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I am really sick... possibly kidney stones, I wont officially know until next thursday.
I really hate being at school. It's pathetic that I go in my shower and cry almost every night. I'm just not happy. I fucking hate who I am as a person. I just seem to do things that just are not me more and more each day. I have this empty hole that just cannot be filled. No one can seem to make me happy anymore, not even Chris, and God knows he tries. I feel like i lost my best friend, I havent seen her since before New Years. I dont know what the hell is going on anymore. I just wish I was home. I fucking hate North Philly. I hate college. I hate being sick and in a hell of alot of pain. I just wish I could go home.
I really hate being at school. It's pathetic that I go in my shower and cry almost every night. I'm just not happy. I fucking hate who I am as a person. I just seem to do things that just are not me more and more each day. I have this empty hole that just cannot be filled. No one can seem to make me happy anymore, not even Chris, and God knows he tries. I feel like i lost my best friend, I havent seen her since before New Years. I dont know what the hell is going on anymore. I just wish I was home. I fucking hate North Philly. I hate college. I hate being sick and in a hell of alot of pain. I just wish I could go home.