Friday the 13th.
Alright, so as we all know it is Friday the 13th. Which me, being who I am, just by the way I am and who I am, are very supersticious. So yeah, here goes nothing.
Today the day started out alright when I woke up, but after my shower I wanted to blow dry my hair, my hair dryer broke on me, which completly sucked. I walked to school in the cold and my hair wet, and I was like..pissed. Whatever, I'll get over it. School overall was a drag, its the 13th and a friday, I had to watch every step I took practically.
In Orchestra we had this guy come in and we played for his and he graded us typa thing we did in NYC, but this time, this guy made me realize how much I really LOVE the violin and how much I am going to miss it when I move. I'll have to learn how to play on my own, and start playing harder music. Im going to start lessons asap so I don't lose my grip in loving it so much. He just said something or another that made me realize, this is one thing I absolutly LOVE to do.
I came home and was in a very fun and loving mood like always, but I started to watch Oprah, and it was about this teen being addicited to Crystal Meth, and she felt like she was going to die. I think I sat there for about 30 minutes before I realized something about my mom. My mom was extremly addicited to alchol, and as a result now, she has liver cancer that may soon kill her. It's very misleading and makes me think some things over everyday. It made me think of everything, and how I'd have to live..and I just started crying. She came home for about 20 minutes to see me because I told her I was having a bad day..amazing what she'll do for me. She walked in and I just hugged her. It felt amazing just because she came home to see me from an hour away. I love my mother to death, and I have no idea what I'd do without her.
Then after she left I had one of those mental breakdowns I go through like, daily. I thought about my dad, and how much I love and miss him. I guess my mom talked to him and he called me just to say I love you, which was amazing. I absolutly love my father and mother to death and they are just amazing. I downloaded that song "Dance with my father" by Luther Vandross, and I love it, and it just makes me think of everything that I have in my life & what I love. So i think its amazing.
Now on to what I really learned today. I finally learned who are my real (girl) friends, and who are just lying pieces of shit. I don't know how I found out, but I did. So I have a few things to say about these selected few girls:
Ashley Moore, you've been my friend for going on 5ish months now, and I feel like I've known you forever. You are an amazing friend and just the best to hang out with. Sometimes I can be in a bitchy mood and whatnot, but you've always been there for me. And before, when I hated you, AH Im so sorry for that I didnt mean anything I ever said. I should of known you were going to be a good friend since the beginning, but im now just realizing what I value so much about it, I value how your so caring for me, and how your so sweet and how you try to fix everything when it's not fixable. I love you for that and I don't want you to forget that. Your an amazing friend. Thank you. & I love you.
Katie Nichols, your the best ever. We can talk about everything and anything, and we always can have a good time no matter what. You've been here for 2 long and crazy years with it's ups and downs, but mainly ups. We've gone through alot and I really hope theres a hell of alot more to come. And I am very very very happy that your always my partner in Economics, because if you weren't, I'd probablly be failing. Thanks for everything, not just helping me get better then a D in Economics but making me believe in achieving my highest goals. You've been here through alot, thanks for jsut about everything, even the fights. <3
Tiffany Sweeney. I don't even know where to begin. You've been here for me since day one, ever since we introduced eachother to one another. :P Your such a great friend and an amazing person to just spend 10 minutes with. You make every day of my living life an excitment and you just brighten my day with one smile, one blush, with one "ughhh leave me alone". you just an amazing friend with such a bubbly personiliaty like me, I've always wondered why we get along so great. Haha thanks for helping me try out for cheer, I had so much fun just trying out, even if I did fractor my wrist. <3 BESTFRIENDFORLIFENOMATTERWHATHAPPENS! Nothing can rip us apart. I love you.
Lastly, Robin Lee Henkle. My main girl. I feel bad saying that she's my bestfriend because you all are amazing, but..I just feel, oh nevermind. Heres your speal Robin. <3
Robin,
I wanted to write this because I feel you should know how I feel. Your the most amazing friend I have ever known and you've been here for me since 3rd grade, and I have absolutly no idea what I would be doing without you. I know I wouldn't of stayed in Orchestra. But thats totally besides the point. You've been here for all the heartbreaks, for all the goods and the bads, you've been here whe I did something wrong, when I was right, when I just didn't feel like talking to anyone. You listen to my concerns like their your own, and you just, make me happy im living. You have that thing in you that just makes it totally worth while. You can brighten my day by just sitting and watching a Lifetime movie with me, or going to see a scarey one, or just flipping through magazines in the center of your messy bedroom floor. You are making this moe so easy for me, your making it seem like Im going to be fine, you make it seem like it'll be okay, and that you're going to survive when Im gone.
You are the most amazing person ever. We can have a good time just walking to the store to buy milk or something. I don't know if you remember in 6th grade, but we did REALLY good on our report cards, and we showed Ms. Gatsas and she gave us $5.00 to go to the store to buy ice cream, because it was a really hot day. That was so much fun. Then every day in 6th grade you'd walk me to this one house..my Tae Kwon Do teacher's house. We'd have fun just skipping along and being bored. We have trouble saying by because we knew 15 minutes later we'd be on the phone talking about boys, and homework and what we were wearing the next day. Twin day was fun, I still have that shirt actually. What about going to plays??? The Lion King, The one we just saw yesterday. We ALWAYS have fun at those. What about going shopping? We spend like $50 at a time because we save it up for a once a month get-a-way.
I just really wanted you to know how much I care for you and how much I really do appraciate what you've done for me in the past, and how much we are going to accomplish as friends in the future. Your by far my bestfriend, and I really never want to lose you. No fight can ever tear us apart, and nothing can ever make us hate eachother. I love you to death Robin, and I hope you get where im coming from and feel the same way. Im going to mis the shit out of you when I move, you have no idea. Best Friends for LIFE.
With all that being said, Im going to go watch TV and just think of everything good in my life. <3 Comment if you want.
Today the day started out alright when I woke up, but after my shower I wanted to blow dry my hair, my hair dryer broke on me, which completly sucked. I walked to school in the cold and my hair wet, and I was like..pissed. Whatever, I'll get over it. School overall was a drag, its the 13th and a friday, I had to watch every step I took practically.
In Orchestra we had this guy come in and we played for his and he graded us typa thing we did in NYC, but this time, this guy made me realize how much I really LOVE the violin and how much I am going to miss it when I move. I'll have to learn how to play on my own, and start playing harder music. Im going to start lessons asap so I don't lose my grip in loving it so much. He just said something or another that made me realize, this is one thing I absolutly LOVE to do.
I came home and was in a very fun and loving mood like always, but I started to watch Oprah, and it was about this teen being addicited to Crystal Meth, and she felt like she was going to die. I think I sat there for about 30 minutes before I realized something about my mom. My mom was extremly addicited to alchol, and as a result now, she has liver cancer that may soon kill her. It's very misleading and makes me think some things over everyday. It made me think of everything, and how I'd have to live..and I just started crying. She came home for about 20 minutes to see me because I told her I was having a bad day..amazing what she'll do for me. She walked in and I just hugged her. It felt amazing just because she came home to see me from an hour away. I love my mother to death, and I have no idea what I'd do without her.
Then after she left I had one of those mental breakdowns I go through like, daily. I thought about my dad, and how much I love and miss him. I guess my mom talked to him and he called me just to say I love you, which was amazing. I absolutly love my father and mother to death and they are just amazing. I downloaded that song "Dance with my father" by Luther Vandross, and I love it, and it just makes me think of everything that I have in my life & what I love. So i think its amazing.
Now on to what I really learned today. I finally learned who are my real (girl) friends, and who are just lying pieces of shit. I don't know how I found out, but I did. So I have a few things to say about these selected few girls:
Ashley Moore, you've been my friend for going on 5ish months now, and I feel like I've known you forever. You are an amazing friend and just the best to hang out with. Sometimes I can be in a bitchy mood and whatnot, but you've always been there for me. And before, when I hated you, AH Im so sorry for that I didnt mean anything I ever said. I should of known you were going to be a good friend since the beginning, but im now just realizing what I value so much about it, I value how your so caring for me, and how your so sweet and how you try to fix everything when it's not fixable. I love you for that and I don't want you to forget that. Your an amazing friend. Thank you. & I love you.
Katie Nichols, your the best ever. We can talk about everything and anything, and we always can have a good time no matter what. You've been here for 2 long and crazy years with it's ups and downs, but mainly ups. We've gone through alot and I really hope theres a hell of alot more to come. And I am very very very happy that your always my partner in Economics, because if you weren't, I'd probablly be failing. Thanks for everything, not just helping me get better then a D in Economics but making me believe in achieving my highest goals. You've been here through alot, thanks for jsut about everything, even the fights. <3
Tiffany Sweeney. I don't even know where to begin. You've been here for me since day one, ever since we introduced eachother to one another. :P Your such a great friend and an amazing person to just spend 10 minutes with. You make every day of my living life an excitment and you just brighten my day with one smile, one blush, with one "ughhh leave me alone". you just an amazing friend with such a bubbly personiliaty like me, I've always wondered why we get along so great. Haha thanks for helping me try out for cheer, I had so much fun just trying out, even if I did fractor my wrist. <3 BESTFRIENDFORLIFENOMATTERWHATHAPPENS! Nothing can rip us apart. I love you.
Lastly, Robin Lee Henkle. My main girl. I feel bad saying that she's my bestfriend because you all are amazing, but..I just feel, oh nevermind. Heres your speal Robin. <3
Robin,
I wanted to write this because I feel you should know how I feel. Your the most amazing friend I have ever known and you've been here for me since 3rd grade, and I have absolutly no idea what I would be doing without you. I know I wouldn't of stayed in Orchestra. But thats totally besides the point. You've been here for all the heartbreaks, for all the goods and the bads, you've been here whe I did something wrong, when I was right, when I just didn't feel like talking to anyone. You listen to my concerns like their your own, and you just, make me happy im living. You have that thing in you that just makes it totally worth while. You can brighten my day by just sitting and watching a Lifetime movie with me, or going to see a scarey one, or just flipping through magazines in the center of your messy bedroom floor. You are making this moe so easy for me, your making it seem like Im going to be fine, you make it seem like it'll be okay, and that you're going to survive when Im gone.
You are the most amazing person ever. We can have a good time just walking to the store to buy milk or something. I don't know if you remember in 6th grade, but we did REALLY good on our report cards, and we showed Ms. Gatsas and she gave us $5.00 to go to the store to buy ice cream, because it was a really hot day. That was so much fun. Then every day in 6th grade you'd walk me to this one house..my Tae Kwon Do teacher's house. We'd have fun just skipping along and being bored. We have trouble saying by because we knew 15 minutes later we'd be on the phone talking about boys, and homework and what we were wearing the next day. Twin day was fun, I still have that shirt actually. What about going to plays??? The Lion King, The one we just saw yesterday. We ALWAYS have fun at those. What about going shopping? We spend like $50 at a time because we save it up for a once a month get-a-way.
I just really wanted you to know how much I care for you and how much I really do appraciate what you've done for me in the past, and how much we are going to accomplish as friends in the future. Your by far my bestfriend, and I really never want to lose you. No fight can ever tear us apart, and nothing can ever make us hate eachother. I love you to death Robin, and I hope you get where im coming from and feel the same way. Im going to mis the shit out of you when I move, you have no idea. Best Friends for LIFE.
With all that being said, Im going to go watch TV and just think of everything good in my life. <3 Comment if you want.