Track 18: Dam Dariram

[feel_that_pulse]

I'm making this public only so...I wanna make sure she reads it. I don't care who else knows.

An-chan, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I was stupid and I'm sorry, I -- I know I can keep on making excuses and tell you how much I just didn't like it at all, that I was jealous and that's the only reason why I was making an ass of myself and - I know you don't wanna talk to me or have hardly anything to do with me anymore but -

I'm sorry. Not just for this.

I'm sorry for running away.
I'm sorry for breaking your heart years ago.
I'm sorry things didn't work out.
I'm sorry I was an idiot and made everyone upset.
I'm sorry for being jealous of you when all you were...doing was...I don't know.
I'm sorry for - everything else.

I know there's a lot I have to be sorry for and maybe you can't forgive me and if you can't, then okay, I'll move on, I'll do whatever I was doing before you came back and we don't have to yell at each other anymore. But -- I've been thinking (I know, shocking, isn't it) lately about it all and - it's hard seeing you here again. I... okay. Here goes.

I'm still not over you.

Yeah, okay, so it's been two years. So I left cos I was in love with someone else. But if there's anything I've learned from all this it's that...I don't like being without you. I -- I'm not really happy being without you.

I've been really stupid lately and I understand if you never wanna talk to me again...

but I at least thought that maybe you should know.

I need your love in every way
And I feel this everyday
Cause I have too many tears
To fall in love again

Now, I am walking around
In this side of the town I just can't hide away
How can I look in your eyes
When I feel like to die I have to run away