black and white.
i meant to post yesterday,
seeing as how i haven't in the longest time.
instead i'm getting around to it now and the difference in what i'm going to be writing about is like black and white.
yesterday, it would've been sheer excitement because today i was supposed to turn in a holding fee and credit check for this adorable apartment in santa monica.
i had planned on moving out with my friend betsy- there was even talk of gabby joining in at some point.
i could imagine nothing more awesome than having erica, bri or jade as roommates.
as many of you know this whole roommate thing has been difficult to come by from the very beginning and the fact that it seemed possible for things to come together so seamlessly was comforting and exciting.
instead today i learned that betsy doesn't think living in santa monica is what she wants and is going to keep looking in los feliez.
i love los feliez and silverlake,
really.
however, if i can afford something in santa monica there's no point in moving even farther away from school than i am now.
i'm so sad and disapointed, i cried all the way home after explaining the situation to erica.
i've already turned in my 30 days notice, so i've gotta find a place anyway.
i'm over living by myself but it's become apparent yet again that i really have no one to rely or count on in this ordeal.
i hate being idealistic about things.
roommates, guys, life.
i hate that i allow myself to get my hopes up over and over again.
why can't moving out with a friend by simple?
why can't there be a guy who makes me smile just thinking about him, and who'll call just to say hello?
why can't i find things to make myself happy?
oh well, it's times like this when i really have to keep my head up, because it can only get better from here...right?!?
seeing as how i haven't in the longest time.
instead i'm getting around to it now and the difference in what i'm going to be writing about is like black and white.
yesterday, it would've been sheer excitement because today i was supposed to turn in a holding fee and credit check for this adorable apartment in santa monica.
i had planned on moving out with my friend betsy- there was even talk of gabby joining in at some point.
i could imagine nothing more awesome than having erica, bri or jade as roommates.
as many of you know this whole roommate thing has been difficult to come by from the very beginning and the fact that it seemed possible for things to come together so seamlessly was comforting and exciting.
instead today i learned that betsy doesn't think living in santa monica is what she wants and is going to keep looking in los feliez.
i love los feliez and silverlake,
really.
however, if i can afford something in santa monica there's no point in moving even farther away from school than i am now.
i'm so sad and disapointed, i cried all the way home after explaining the situation to erica.
i've already turned in my 30 days notice, so i've gotta find a place anyway.
i'm over living by myself but it's become apparent yet again that i really have no one to rely or count on in this ordeal.
i hate being idealistic about things.
roommates, guys, life.
i hate that i allow myself to get my hopes up over and over again.
why can't moving out with a friend by simple?
why can't there be a guy who makes me smile just thinking about him, and who'll call just to say hello?
why can't i find things to make myself happy?
oh well, it's times like this when i really have to keep my head up, because it can only get better from here...right?!?