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So I went out with her tonight. That spark, it's still there. She was all over me.
GOD CUNT FUCKING DAMNIT. I'm really not over her. FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK! I don't know what to do, I'm totally into this chick.
Shit. I was acting so uninterested. Hell, we even talked about being roommates, since she's staying at home, and I'm looking for a new place. Fucking shit fuck cock cunt fuck shit.
Goddamnit. I guess I do wanna be a regular person. I guess I do want a relationship.
I guess I'm not a monster.
I guess I do really care.
So much for my invincibility.
I'm just a fallible person.
God, you know what's the worst?
The goddamn pictures.
Motherfuckers.
I fucking hate that I'm succumbing to human emotions
I want to be a goddamn robot.
In truth, I don't need anything.
Food
Water
Shelter
Money
That's it.
I don't need this.
I don't need this.
I want this, but...
I don't need this.
But why am I so fucking smitten?
Maybe I'm just drunk.
Maybe I just need to go to sleep.
The morning will bring a new attitude.
A new...
What am I trying to say?
Ambivalence.
Apathy.
Optimism?