April 4th.
I feel good right now. Not necessarily super good, but mood wise. My stomach hurts. Most likely because I took like 4 pills this morning. I had a huge pain in my back but the pills worked. Now I'm just starving myself for good measure. Lots of water. I'm glad I'm back to drinking water, I have about a bottle a school day, and try to fill it once I get home but I'm still working on that second part. I really gotta go to the gym today and I want to but I don't feel like getting sweaty and then having a shower so I can go out once again. The plan is Coral's for ANTM, and possibly going out after? I'm not sure. Jeremy invited me to a 19th birthday party, but I'm not so sure about it. I have no monies for booze even. But I guess a hang out would be okay...if we could even find some way to where ever the house is located. I'm doing a paragraph right now for English Litt. and well it was only supposed to be 125 words but I'm already at 150 and havn't even started the second part of what I intend to write. I sent him an email, I don't know if he'll read it in time or not but we'll see tomorrow before work I guess. It's been kind of upsetting but I'm always good at brushing things to the side pretending like everything's alright, so therefore I'm okay. I'd just like to know what's going on but I'm also too much of a chicken to ask. I don't want to work tomorrow night, or the night after that but of course, I will. Next thursday I get paid about 250. I must keep 30 in the bank for the gym. I'll owe my mom about 50-60 after this weekend. I want to put about 100 or so in my savings finally, and then the rest I'll either somehow save or spend. haha Kersten just came in and declared that she thinks my new boy should be hot boy aka my highschool crush that I always awkwardly run into/will most likely never talk to ever. But I can dream haha. Anyways I gotta finish this Engy shit, which will be hard, because a bunch of losa friends just sat at the table behind me and are distracting.