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PICTURES!! yea!
me lying around.. i like my eyes in this one:)
these are of me and my honey at a park. when we got there it was drizzling and
you can faintly see the rainbow behind me :)
this is of our shadows at the bench that we watched the sunset
the sunset!!
and this is the face of the sweetest boy i've ever known :)
i'll throw these in for fun... i was the Queen of Hearts at a costume party :D
hmmm, what's new??...
well, i'm now the wardrobe supervisor for the Four Play Series at the Lab Theatre.. very cool. i'm volunteering, but my teacher said i should get paid, but i doubt it. i was expecting to do some volunteering for theatre this summer anyways. i'll get paid when i graduate and have my degree.
i've been feeling kind of down on myself lately. i have no energy outside of my responsibilities--and i'm not even that busy. i'm afraid i'm not as fun as i used to be. and i need to play my cello! and read more! and drink more water! and have a good breakfast! and stop being such a square! i swear, i need to just let go.. maybe get plastered more. i'm always sitting around doing all this self-analyzing. i should just loosen up and have fun. i get so paranoid. i'm tired of it. i used to be so wild and quirky. i guess some of it is because i lost my mama recently. now my entire view of family has changed. i feel more alone in the world. we're going to be selling our house, not too soon, but soon enough, and though i haven't lived there for a few years, that's where i go home to. my 18-year old sister lives there by herself. --with her best friend, for the summer. so much has changed.. i'm logged with regret, and sometimes guilt. at times, i'm hardly able to enjoy the good memories. i'm just bombarded with the images of what she looked like at the end. it's going to be seven months since in four days. when i say down on myself lately, it's pretty much been the whole time. .............. i like living on the second floor. i get to see the squirrles rummaging through the trees. my kitty likes it too.... bah! bah humbug!.... everyday i dose myself in chocolate to make me feel better. it's magic :)
me lying around.. i like my eyes in this one:)
these are of me and my honey at a park. when we got there it was drizzling and
you can faintly see the rainbow behind me :)
this is of our shadows at the bench that we watched the sunset
the sunset!!
and this is the face of the sweetest boy i've ever known :)
i'll throw these in for fun... i was the Queen of Hearts at a costume party :D
hmmm, what's new??...
well, i'm now the wardrobe supervisor for the Four Play Series at the Lab Theatre.. very cool. i'm volunteering, but my teacher said i should get paid, but i doubt it. i was expecting to do some volunteering for theatre this summer anyways. i'll get paid when i graduate and have my degree.
i've been feeling kind of down on myself lately. i have no energy outside of my responsibilities--and i'm not even that busy. i'm afraid i'm not as fun as i used to be. and i need to play my cello! and read more! and drink more water! and have a good breakfast! and stop being such a square! i swear, i need to just let go.. maybe get plastered more. i'm always sitting around doing all this self-analyzing. i should just loosen up and have fun. i get so paranoid. i'm tired of it. i used to be so wild and quirky. i guess some of it is because i lost my mama recently. now my entire view of family has changed. i feel more alone in the world. we're going to be selling our house, not too soon, but soon enough, and though i haven't lived there for a few years, that's where i go home to. my 18-year old sister lives there by herself. --with her best friend, for the summer. so much has changed.. i'm logged with regret, and sometimes guilt. at times, i'm hardly able to enjoy the good memories. i'm just bombarded with the images of what she looked like at the end. it's going to be seven months since in four days. when i say down on myself lately, it's pretty much been the whole time. .............. i like living on the second floor. i get to see the squirrles rummaging through the trees. my kitty likes it too.... bah! bah humbug!.... everyday i dose myself in chocolate to make me feel better. it's magic :)