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the past week has been great
i know i said it before but it is true
ive learned to appreciate everything around me and not get upset
i learned how to let go
lets see, what did i do this week?
monday- 4th of july. spent it with the mother. we were down at LBI with her friend GAY and her hubby TIM. it was a nice weekend, the last we will have before i leave :( and i got a terri sun burn (but its all good now)
tuesday- HIGH FOCASS i truly love that place. then my last tuesday at work :( i love working for teh siddiqui's and being with davie's mommy. i learned that wayne was having their fire works that night but no body was around so i didnt go. i went out with amanda's cousin mike that night too. we saw WAR OF THE WORLDS and i can honestly say that was THE WORST MOVIE I HAVE EVER SEEN. i feel bad for him, he drove so far so me to make fun of him for being an old man.
wednesday- i didnt get to go to HIGH FOCASS that day because i had to do a lot of things for this saturday. i went to my doctor of 18 years to get a "physical" done and found out that i need to take a meningitis shot, oh well. i got at the office at 10:30 ish AM put my name on the list and went to see my grandparents and help them run errands. i love my grandpa, he is so old but so cute. he gives me the best advise ever, because he knows what he is talking about and i know i will miss him so much when i lose him. well i didnt get in to actually see the doc until 4:30 (cubans for you). i went to see my grandma in the hospital. she isnt doing too well, but she isnt going to die in the near future. driving back from weahawkin was INSANE because the ramp from route 3 west to 46 west was closed off. I WAS ON THAT DANM HIGH WAY FOR 3 HOURS! A HIGH WAY THAT OTHER WISE TAKES ME 10 MIN TO GET THROUGH!!! when i FINALLY got out of that i decided that i need a mini vaca in the middle of the week because my day was so hectic, so i did just so. jimmy (my pequanock <3) was calling me and kept inviting me down to his family's house in LBI, so i went down for the night. i love that boy. i met his cousin brad and sister kerry. kerry goes to rowan too so we are going to hang out :) jimmy brad and i went swimming in the OCEAN at mid night and then met up with kerry and mark and mark showed me how to steal a sandwich from WAWAs. oh i listened to jimmy's "band" thinggy called KRACKERS INC. it is sooooo funny go seach for them on myspace and listen to the songs, you will laugh your ass off.
thursday- well i slept over at jimmy's and i wanted to see the sun rise REALLY badly. i told the boys that i was going to wake them up at 5 in the morning so we could all see it. well, it took me 20 MIN to get jimmy out of bed and like 2 sec to get brad just to find out that it was really cloudy and we couldnt see the sun rise :( oh well it was funny torturing him. we came up with a bunch of things to do the next time im down there, which is going to be in a week and a half, so im excited :)
i had to leave pretty early that morning because i was going to julie's beach house, hang around there for a bit, and then drive her back up to wayne. we did that. played on the beach for a bit, it was nice. i FINALLY met her grandma mum-mum. i didnt get to stay there that long because i have to be in parsippany for my VERY LAST DAY AT HIGH FOCASS!. it was nice. we had my good bye group and i cried because that place has made such a HUGE difference in my life. my whole way of thinking has changed. see, the past 1.5-2 years i didnt feel like myself. i felt so bitter, and numb. but now, now i am who I AM. i found myself again. i dont expect anyone to understand that/really care. i did this for myself, no anybody else because in the end i am the only one who has to live with JANELLE for the rest of her life.
the drive home was bitter sweet. it finally hit me that i am leaving saturday. yes, i was balling my eyes out the entire way home. the thing is i wasnt crying because i am sad or anything, it was a happy cry. i am so excited, but i am a bit scared because a WHOLE new chapter has started and i just realized it.
after that, davie came over for a bit. he left and jeremy wang and julie came over. we went out to dinner then up to the drive in. i love jeremy, he is one of the best people i have ever met and i am so lucky that i GOT to meet him. it was a nice last night with those boys, and julie of course. again, driving back home from the drive-in i cried a bit because i am going to miss those two boys so much. jeremy told me that he is only a phone call away and no matter what he will be down there in 2 hours max, that made me feel better. i know we havent been friends for too long, but we just have that bond. i would do anything for that boy.
friday- i have work, m VERY LAST DAY. then i need to buy a few more things for college and pack. GAH i have to go to the doctors again :( for the dreaded shot ::dundundun:: it is going to be a janelle and mommy day.
I AM SO EXCITED. im going to be pretty busy, but if anyone wants to talk or come around for a bit, my line will be open all day long. i hope i get to see some of you before saturday. oh and i am leaving 5:30 in the morning saturday, so tomorrow night i need a good nights sleep.
good bye everybody. its been a great however many years i have known you.
i know i said it before but it is true
ive learned to appreciate everything around me and not get upset
i learned how to let go
lets see, what did i do this week?
monday- 4th of july. spent it with the mother. we were down at LBI with her friend GAY and her hubby TIM. it was a nice weekend, the last we will have before i leave :( and i got a terri sun burn (but its all good now)
tuesday- HIGH FOCASS i truly love that place. then my last tuesday at work :( i love working for teh siddiqui's and being with davie's mommy. i learned that wayne was having their fire works that night but no body was around so i didnt go. i went out with amanda's cousin mike that night too. we saw WAR OF THE WORLDS and i can honestly say that was THE WORST MOVIE I HAVE EVER SEEN. i feel bad for him, he drove so far so me to make fun of him for being an old man.
wednesday- i didnt get to go to HIGH FOCASS that day because i had to do a lot of things for this saturday. i went to my doctor of 18 years to get a "physical" done and found out that i need to take a meningitis shot, oh well. i got at the office at 10:30 ish AM put my name on the list and went to see my grandparents and help them run errands. i love my grandpa, he is so old but so cute. he gives me the best advise ever, because he knows what he is talking about and i know i will miss him so much when i lose him. well i didnt get in to actually see the doc until 4:30 (cubans for you). i went to see my grandma in the hospital. she isnt doing too well, but she isnt going to die in the near future. driving back from weahawkin was INSANE because the ramp from route 3 west to 46 west was closed off. I WAS ON THAT DANM HIGH WAY FOR 3 HOURS! A HIGH WAY THAT OTHER WISE TAKES ME 10 MIN TO GET THROUGH!!! when i FINALLY got out of that i decided that i need a mini vaca in the middle of the week because my day was so hectic, so i did just so. jimmy (my pequanock <3) was calling me and kept inviting me down to his family's house in LBI, so i went down for the night. i love that boy. i met his cousin brad and sister kerry. kerry goes to rowan too so we are going to hang out :) jimmy brad and i went swimming in the OCEAN at mid night and then met up with kerry and mark and mark showed me how to steal a sandwich from WAWAs. oh i listened to jimmy's "band" thinggy called KRACKERS INC. it is sooooo funny go seach for them on myspace and listen to the songs, you will laugh your ass off.
thursday- well i slept over at jimmy's and i wanted to see the sun rise REALLY badly. i told the boys that i was going to wake them up at 5 in the morning so we could all see it. well, it took me 20 MIN to get jimmy out of bed and like 2 sec to get brad just to find out that it was really cloudy and we couldnt see the sun rise :( oh well it was funny torturing him. we came up with a bunch of things to do the next time im down there, which is going to be in a week and a half, so im excited :)
i had to leave pretty early that morning because i was going to julie's beach house, hang around there for a bit, and then drive her back up to wayne. we did that. played on the beach for a bit, it was nice. i FINALLY met her grandma mum-mum. i didnt get to stay there that long because i have to be in parsippany for my VERY LAST DAY AT HIGH FOCASS!. it was nice. we had my good bye group and i cried because that place has made such a HUGE difference in my life. my whole way of thinking has changed. see, the past 1.5-2 years i didnt feel like myself. i felt so bitter, and numb. but now, now i am who I AM. i found myself again. i dont expect anyone to understand that/really care. i did this for myself, no anybody else because in the end i am the only one who has to live with JANELLE for the rest of her life.
the drive home was bitter sweet. it finally hit me that i am leaving saturday. yes, i was balling my eyes out the entire way home. the thing is i wasnt crying because i am sad or anything, it was a happy cry. i am so excited, but i am a bit scared because a WHOLE new chapter has started and i just realized it.
after that, davie came over for a bit. he left and jeremy wang and julie came over. we went out to dinner then up to the drive in. i love jeremy, he is one of the best people i have ever met and i am so lucky that i GOT to meet him. it was a nice last night with those boys, and julie of course. again, driving back home from the drive-in i cried a bit because i am going to miss those two boys so much. jeremy told me that he is only a phone call away and no matter what he will be down there in 2 hours max, that made me feel better. i know we havent been friends for too long, but we just have that bond. i would do anything for that boy.
friday- i have work, m VERY LAST DAY. then i need to buy a few more things for college and pack. GAH i have to go to the doctors again :( for the dreaded shot ::dundundun:: it is going to be a janelle and mommy day.
I AM SO EXCITED. im going to be pretty busy, but if anyone wants to talk or come around for a bit, my line will be open all day long. i hope i get to see some of you before saturday. oh and i am leaving 5:30 in the morning saturday, so tomorrow night i need a good nights sleep.
good bye everybody. its been a great however many years i have known you.