RMFC
It was a good con and weekend for the most part, but incidents with the hotel staff and assholes who weren't part of the con made it less enjoyable then it could have been, and left me feeling empty inside. You see, for the first 24 years of my life I was antisocial and afraid to let anyone get close. I then crawled out of my shell and since then, everyone I get close moves away or dies on me. I want for nothing more than to find a loving mate to be in a committed, closed relationship with, but until I get over my self loathing and self destructive behaviors that probably won't happen. Maybe I should just turn my heart to ice again and crawl back into my little hole of isolation, friends, who needs them anyways!?!?!?!?!