i tried. i gave up

[feces_party]

i've tried everything in the book to make things work. change of character, identity, sanity, religious beliefs, sexual preferences, location, friends, diet, and pretty much everything and anything in between. first it was the ptsd. then it was the military. then it was me. then it was back to the ptsd. then it was the pills. now its the government. what i'd like to know is how many excuses does it take to make someone fucking vain and boastful? i just can't do this anymore. the last month a half we have been behaving as roomates, not lovers. to get a hug out of the faggot is like drawing blood from a stone.

things were going so well, really they were. perhaps right now is just not the time. but the more i think about it, i don't think there will ever be a "right time"

clest la vie