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i let myself fall into a lie
i let my walls come down
i let myself smile and feel alive
i let my walls come down
no matter how i try i don't know why
you push so far away
you wrapped your hands tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me
the part that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you
i can't believe the way you took me down
i never saw the pain
coming in a million broken miles
like poison in my veins
[chorus]
the hate and the fear
the nightmares that wake me up
in the tears
the nightmares and (the hate)...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Another night again
Another journey without friends
Another fight to wish away the loneliness I live
Another circus show
Another face that I don’t know
Another night of people asking what I have to give
I thought that I would drown
But it’s okay right now
[Chorus:]
And all the miles away I feel a part of me I have to fight
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
The emptiness in me is faded
And I can see my life is waiting
Now I know I’m living for who I am [2x]
The fire grows inside
The feeling cannot be denied
And everywhere I turn the size of guys they push me
And all has fallen down
But it’s okay right now
[Chorus:]
And all the miles away I feel a part of me I have to fight
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
The emptiness in me is faded
And I can see my life is waiting
Now I know I’m living for who I am
And everything seems great and everyone is fake
No one really knows you
Look into their eyes
Rip off your disguise
Let them see the real you
[Chorus:]
And all the miles away I feel a part of me I have to fight
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
The emptiness in me is faded
And I can see my life is waiting
Now I know I’m living for who I am [2x]
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i walk into the room
you don't have to scream i can hear you
bad trip, the needle sticks
you get your kicks from confrontation
i try to make it past
i don't wanna get into it right now
can't this family have one day
to get away from all the pain
and through the night i see the light
shining from the neighbor's windows
i dream of life where i'm safe
in a home where i am not alone
some day i will lay me down
on the grass where everything is greener
it always seems so good on the other side
i'm sick of all the heat
you can taste the hate in the air
running through this family, uncomfortably
it's burning me
is anybody there
in your eyes there's nothing to see
just because your dreams have died
don't drag me down, i've still got mine
[chorus]
neighbor boy runs up to me, his eyes all black and blue
i say what happened to you boy, he said my daddy flew
off the hook cos i was playin too loud
i guess he couldn't hear the tv
he said son i'm a teach you a lesson
and then he .... and then he....
maybe it's not so good on the other side
maybe it's not so good on the other side
but it always seems so good, on the other side
it always looks so good .... it always seems so good
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
too many weeds in the flowers
too many pills in the pharmacy now
too many bugs in the shower
there's too much shit in the air we breathe now
there's too much anger inside me
there's too much scarring when i bleed
there's too much therapy i need
there is no god that i have seen
there's too much doubt in my mom's words
there's too much fear in the way she sees life
i wonder if i'm just like her
i wonder if i can make myself right
you try to help
you listen well
you cannot change the way i see
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how
in the end all the sinners have to pay
but...
i don't wanna live like my mother
i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father
i don't wanna give up before i die
he worked so hard his bones are breaking
he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
i don't ever want to end up like he did
and...
[chorus]
when i have kids
i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't
i'll tell them this
there's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Empty cup is always full
Empty soul to cleanse my world
Ive been waiting all my life
Empty comes to force my find
To run agiasnt the grains of time
To ride the moment the hero is mine
Im running inside and no one can save me
I know yet i know the freedom it runs
Theres a breaze makes a bad night
Who takes my breath into the sky
Effect the world and kill myself
Purpose served a judgement pill
You realize
To run agaisnt the grains of time
To ride the moment the hero is mine
Im running inside and no one can save me
I know yet i know the freedom it runs
You realize
You win somehow
You bring me down
You win somehow
You bring me down
To run agaisnt the grains of time
To ride the moment the hero is mine
Im running inside and no one can save me
I know yet i know the freedom it runs
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
in the land of dirt and plaster
lies an army of a thousand nowhere kids
losing ground and falling faster
into a life that no one should have to live
we are the people that you hate
we are the bastards that you created (the fucking bastards that you created)
a generation with no place
a generation of all your sons and daughters
behind the fake family image
behind the smile of a thousand moms and dads
inside the cage that we've been given
i see an image of the future that we don't have
[chorus]
and what did you expect ... a perfect child
raised by tv sets ... abandoned every mile
we never get respect ... never a fair trial
no one gives a shit ... as long as we smile
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``
Spent the night in a broken car
My broken self hasn't come to far
From all the things that I wish I said
Feeling space in my broken head
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
Listen to all the birds today
All the things that it has to say
The simple things that I learn to love
A darken cloud in the sky above
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
All ok
All ok
All ok
All ok
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i try
to be the man i am
in times of broken lives
and shattered dreams and plans
standing up to fight
the pressures and demands
staring at the knife
and holding in your hand
what used to be your life
this world is crazy
my dreams are fading
i want my life
you fight
your fucked up holy wars
fire anti-christ
jesus will come down
and help us win tonight
now how should i feel
i think i feel alright
so tell me where to aim
i'm blinded by the light
this world is crazy
my dreams are fading
no one can save me
i want my life
and when i wake up you'll be here
and it will be the way it was
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``
i waited for you
i died inside my own head
and i'd die again for you
i'm faded and tired
completely uninspired
and i'd die again for you
so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed
i'm searching for reasons
to keep away the demons
and i'd die again for you
i wish you were near me
could feel it when you hear me say
i'd die again for you
so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed
you wanted me to crawl so now i'm on my knees
why's it always have to be me
that's always left out to burn and
i'll never learn
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I don't care anymore if I let you down
I believe that I need to be free
I'm so used to my life with you around
I don't know anymore....the real me
And i thought i found my self today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
All these tears that I've cried
You must be tired of taking care of me but
Its what you do best and
I'm a liar cause really its what I need
And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
Someone like you
Someone like me
Maybe its change that set you free
Free....
And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i don't want your solutions
and i don't wanna deal with your mistakes
no matter how much medication
the doctor says i need to take
i still say....
you're the ones that kill your babies
you're the ones that fuck your kids
you're the ones that throw each other away
you're the ones sitting in church every sunday
and i don't want your religions
and i don't need your sympathies
and i don't want a part of all your hatred
no matter how much you yell at me
i still say...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
some days are better, they're better than others
can't run forever, you're pushing me under
what a way to live my life
i'm hiding from the battles i don't want to fight
what i've become
and now it's going grey
all the lines are blurring and decayed
i can't recall exactly who's to blame..... anymore
is it me or is it you , something isn't right
of all the things that we could do we just wanna fight
someday i will find the courage to embrace you
someday i will find the strength to erase you
some days i think i'm nothing without you
sometimes i wish that i could just kill you
what a way we live our lives
it's hard to breathe
it feels like i'm infected by my dad's disease
and now it's going grey
and you're the one i chose to feed me pain
and i'm the one you bring home so ashamed.....through their eyes
[chorus]
and i see myself in heaven
if i can free myself from this hell
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Been scared and lonely
I've asked myself is something wrong with you
My girlfriend told me
I need some time alone to deal with issues
But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
Why I always wanna fly
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
You always call me
And ask me how I make it through the day
I'm always fallin'
I guess it's just god's way of making me pay
But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
When I, I wonder why I try
And I, I wonder why I bother
And I, I wonder why I cry
Why I, I go through all this trouble
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
by now
i should have been somwhere
or gone to school, or fixed my hair
back down
tell it to someone else
who gives a shit and needs your help
cos i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal
all my problems are for me
my god
look at his tattoos and those earrings
he could never get
a good job
go home and beat your kids
so they don't turn out as bad as me
cos i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal
all my problems are for me
i don't need your eyes to see
i will be what i will be
stop coming around cause you bother me
stupid mutherfucker pull your head out your ass and see
what don't you get, was i stuttering
i don't need to take your shit get away from me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
enough said i guess?
i let my walls come down
i let myself smile and feel alive
i let my walls come down
no matter how i try i don't know why
you push so far away
you wrapped your hands tight around my heart
and squeezed it full of pain
with this knife i'll cut out the part of me
the part that cares for you
with this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
the heart that cares for you
i can't believe the way you took me down
i never saw the pain
coming in a million broken miles
like poison in my veins
[chorus]
the hate and the fear
the nightmares that wake me up
in the tears
the nightmares and (the hate)...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Another night again
Another journey without friends
Another fight to wish away the loneliness I live
Another circus show
Another face that I don’t know
Another night of people asking what I have to give
I thought that I would drown
But it’s okay right now
[Chorus:]
And all the miles away I feel a part of me I have to fight
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
The emptiness in me is faded
And I can see my life is waiting
Now I know I’m living for who I am [2x]
The fire grows inside
The feeling cannot be denied
And everywhere I turn the size of guys they push me
And all has fallen down
But it’s okay right now
[Chorus:]
And all the miles away I feel a part of me I have to fight
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
The emptiness in me is faded
And I can see my life is waiting
Now I know I’m living for who I am
And everything seems great and everyone is fake
No one really knows you
Look into their eyes
Rip off your disguise
Let them see the real you
[Chorus:]
And all the miles away I feel a part of me I have to fight
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
The emptiness in me is faded
And I can see my life is waiting
Now I know I’m living for who I am [2x]
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i walk into the room
you don't have to scream i can hear you
bad trip, the needle sticks
you get your kicks from confrontation
i try to make it past
i don't wanna get into it right now
can't this family have one day
to get away from all the pain
and through the night i see the light
shining from the neighbor's windows
i dream of life where i'm safe
in a home where i am not alone
some day i will lay me down
on the grass where everything is greener
it always seems so good on the other side
i'm sick of all the heat
you can taste the hate in the air
running through this family, uncomfortably
it's burning me
is anybody there
in your eyes there's nothing to see
just because your dreams have died
don't drag me down, i've still got mine
[chorus]
neighbor boy runs up to me, his eyes all black and blue
i say what happened to you boy, he said my daddy flew
off the hook cos i was playin too loud
i guess he couldn't hear the tv
he said son i'm a teach you a lesson
and then he .... and then he....
maybe it's not so good on the other side
maybe it's not so good on the other side
but it always seems so good, on the other side
it always looks so good .... it always seems so good
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
too many weeds in the flowers
too many pills in the pharmacy now
too many bugs in the shower
there's too much shit in the air we breathe now
there's too much anger inside me
there's too much scarring when i bleed
there's too much therapy i need
there is no god that i have seen
there's too much doubt in my mom's words
there's too much fear in the way she sees life
i wonder if i'm just like her
i wonder if i can make myself right
you try to help
you listen well
you cannot change the way i see
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
they won't let me go the wrong way
my mother taught me all the fables, told me how
in the end all the sinners have to pay
but...
i don't wanna live like my mother
i don't wanna let fear rule my life
and i don't wanna live like my father
i don't wanna give up before i die
he worked so hard his bones are breaking
he wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
his good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
i don't ever want to end up like he did
and...
[chorus]
when i have kids
i won't put any chains on their wrists, i won't
i'll tell them this
there's nothing in this world that you can't be if you want it enough
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Empty cup is always full
Empty soul to cleanse my world
Ive been waiting all my life
Empty comes to force my find
To run agiasnt the grains of time
To ride the moment the hero is mine
Im running inside and no one can save me
I know yet i know the freedom it runs
Theres a breaze makes a bad night
Who takes my breath into the sky
Effect the world and kill myself
Purpose served a judgement pill
You realize
To run agaisnt the grains of time
To ride the moment the hero is mine
Im running inside and no one can save me
I know yet i know the freedom it runs
You realize
You win somehow
You bring me down
You win somehow
You bring me down
To run agaisnt the grains of time
To ride the moment the hero is mine
Im running inside and no one can save me
I know yet i know the freedom it runs
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
in the land of dirt and plaster
lies an army of a thousand nowhere kids
losing ground and falling faster
into a life that no one should have to live
we are the people that you hate
we are the bastards that you created (the fucking bastards that you created)
a generation with no place
a generation of all your sons and daughters
behind the fake family image
behind the smile of a thousand moms and dads
inside the cage that we've been given
i see an image of the future that we don't have
[chorus]
and what did you expect ... a perfect child
raised by tv sets ... abandoned every mile
we never get respect ... never a fair trial
no one gives a shit ... as long as we smile
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``
Spent the night in a broken car
My broken self hasn't come to far
From all the things that I wish I said
Feeling space in my broken head
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
Listen to all the birds today
All the things that it has to say
The simple things that I learn to love
A darken cloud in the sky above
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
I'll throw it all away (all today)
Nothing's changed everything's the same
I walked away far too late
Now pretend everything's ok
All ok
All ok
All ok
All ok
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i try
to be the man i am
in times of broken lives
and shattered dreams and plans
standing up to fight
the pressures and demands
staring at the knife
and holding in your hand
what used to be your life
this world is crazy
my dreams are fading
i want my life
you fight
your fucked up holy wars
fire anti-christ
jesus will come down
and help us win tonight
now how should i feel
i think i feel alright
so tell me where to aim
i'm blinded by the light
this world is crazy
my dreams are fading
no one can save me
i want my life
and when i wake up you'll be here
and it will be the way it was
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~``
i waited for you
i died inside my own head
and i'd die again for you
i'm faded and tired
completely uninspired
and i'd die again for you
so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed
i'm searching for reasons
to keep away the demons
and i'd die again for you
i wish you were near me
could feel it when you hear me say
i'd die again for you
so kill me with the love that you won't give to me
and pack the wound with salt i want to feel it bleed
you wanted me to crawl so now i'm on my knees
why's it always have to be me
that's always left out to burn and
i'll never learn
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I don't care anymore if I let you down
I believe that I need to be free
I'm so used to my life with you around
I don't know anymore....the real me
And i thought i found my self today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
All these tears that I've cried
You must be tired of taking care of me but
Its what you do best and
I'm a liar cause really its what I need
And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
Someone like you
Someone like me
Maybe its change that set you free
Free....
And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
And I thought that I found myself today
And I thought that I had control
All the change in my life just fell away
For a moment I didn't need you
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i don't want your solutions
and i don't wanna deal with your mistakes
no matter how much medication
the doctor says i need to take
i still say....
you're the ones that kill your babies
you're the ones that fuck your kids
you're the ones that throw each other away
you're the ones sitting in church every sunday
and i don't want your religions
and i don't need your sympathies
and i don't want a part of all your hatred
no matter how much you yell at me
i still say...
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
some days are better, they're better than others
can't run forever, you're pushing me under
what a way to live my life
i'm hiding from the battles i don't want to fight
what i've become
and now it's going grey
all the lines are blurring and decayed
i can't recall exactly who's to blame..... anymore
is it me or is it you , something isn't right
of all the things that we could do we just wanna fight
someday i will find the courage to embrace you
someday i will find the strength to erase you
some days i think i'm nothing without you
sometimes i wish that i could just kill you
what a way we live our lives
it's hard to breathe
it feels like i'm infected by my dad's disease
and now it's going grey
and you're the one i chose to feed me pain
and i'm the one you bring home so ashamed.....through their eyes
[chorus]
and i see myself in heaven
if i can free myself from this hell
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Been scared and lonely
I've asked myself is something wrong with you
My girlfriend told me
I need some time alone to deal with issues
But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
Why I always wanna fly
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
You always call me
And ask me how I make it through the day
I'm always fallin'
I guess it's just god's way of making me pay
But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand, why I always wanna fly
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
When I, I wonder why I try
And I, I wonder why I bother
And I, I wonder why I cry
Why I, I go through all this trouble
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom of a bottle
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
by now
i should have been somwhere
or gone to school, or fixed my hair
back down
tell it to someone else
who gives a shit and needs your help
cos i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal
all my problems are for me
my god
look at his tattoos and those earrings
he could never get
a good job
go home and beat your kids
so they don't turn out as bad as me
cos i found
what i needed
and i don't need you to tell me how you feel
and if i fall
you are not the one that has to cope and deal
all my problems are for me
i don't need your eyes to see
i will be what i will be
stop coming around cause you bother me
stupid mutherfucker pull your head out your ass and see
what don't you get, was i stuttering
i don't need to take your shit get away from me
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
enough said i guess?