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letting go of everything seems so much easier than living lies.
My teachers keep calling my house..wanting to know why i'm never in school..its only cause im freaking dying. To sum up all I want to say, but can't, I feel like I'm not even mentally here. My physical presence is here, but all my emotions are numb, and I feel like I am deep inside myself watching this other person live (or not live) my life. I've dragged myself out of bed long enough, sit at the computer and become dizzy with realness. I dont even think that that is a word. But whateva. O man. I can't wait until the sun brings warmth again, and mostly i can't wait until Prom. I starred at my dress for awhile today, picturing myself in it, though i know what I look like in it. I put it on last night, and it was a little big, I have to take it to the alter's anyways...it's a tad too long. Alright...rambling is done. Medication is now, The Used my lullaby, sing to me.