what makes us all crazy....well relationships of course. hehe.
So there it is generally no secret that i get crushes alot. Its not a bad thing, for the most part it doesnt bother me too much.
Today its pretty much the same, i have a couple crushes, one is a bit more "serious" i suppose.
With that, i dont really assert myself and let them how i feel unless something has already happened, generally a defining moment, date etc. But i have put myself out there recently and not to my surprise it was kinda pushed aside. meh. thats that. Its strange, i am very open to the idea of dating and even "settling down" relatively, but i have come to the point were im not outwardly looking for it or care if it happens soon. I have taken a very passive and nonchalant approach to this kind of situation, which to me is much more comfortable because of my past worries and behavior that would get me emotionally hurt or vulnerable. And for that fact, i am very happy.
For some reason i have had some run in's with some girls that i had a crush on, was interested etc at earlier times and wondered what would have happened. I realize that i always in a point of transition when im interested/she is interested and things never materialize. That in itself is kinda sad and disappointing, I just have bad luck like that haha. I really just want to meet a girl thats immediately is as interested in me as i am in her, that hasnt happened in awhile.
Im looking for a girl that is uniquely independent, strong, funny, fun, smart, goal oriented and relaxed. I know this sounds like a dating site description, but im just trying to find this person, and when i seem to, its not mutual or something is in the way. Its very unfortunate. I know that im not a looker, dont have the best body, but i have alot of things going for me, and i just have that same hope for the other person as well. I have pretty high standards and outlooks, but i also think i have matured alot and have put alot of the superficial stuff aside and am willing to accept so much more.
just some random, crazy relationship thoughts...sorry. haha.
Today its pretty much the same, i have a couple crushes, one is a bit more "serious" i suppose.
With that, i dont really assert myself and let them how i feel unless something has already happened, generally a defining moment, date etc. But i have put myself out there recently and not to my surprise it was kinda pushed aside. meh. thats that. Its strange, i am very open to the idea of dating and even "settling down" relatively, but i have come to the point were im not outwardly looking for it or care if it happens soon. I have taken a very passive and nonchalant approach to this kind of situation, which to me is much more comfortable because of my past worries and behavior that would get me emotionally hurt or vulnerable. And for that fact, i am very happy.
For some reason i have had some run in's with some girls that i had a crush on, was interested etc at earlier times and wondered what would have happened. I realize that i always in a point of transition when im interested/she is interested and things never materialize. That in itself is kinda sad and disappointing, I just have bad luck like that haha. I really just want to meet a girl thats immediately is as interested in me as i am in her, that hasnt happened in awhile.
Im looking for a girl that is uniquely independent, strong, funny, fun, smart, goal oriented and relaxed. I know this sounds like a dating site description, but im just trying to find this person, and when i seem to, its not mutual or something is in the way. Its very unfortunate. I know that im not a looker, dont have the best body, but i have alot of things going for me, and i just have that same hope for the other person as well. I have pretty high standards and outlooks, but i also think i have matured alot and have put alot of the superficial stuff aside and am willing to accept so much more.
just some random, crazy relationship thoughts...sorry. haha.