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Have you ever had that feeling of utter lonelyness that leaves you feeling empty....and you dont know if you feel that way because you have been pushing people away, or if they are pushing you away.....or you have grown too far apart.
I could not sleep and i remembered how comforting Adam's letters were so i decided to read them.....the love that was in those letters made me cry so hard. How could I ever feel alone with a love as powerful as that? I began to miss Adam so terribly and I cried myself to sleep. I hate doing that....when i cry myself to sleep the next day i feel so drained and dead inside. And that makes me feel even more alone and empty. Lately my emptyness has been consuming me.....i want it to stop.....i want things to be wonderful again....i want to wake up every day and see Adam's perfect face, to feel his warm skin.....sometimes when i wake up in the middle of the night i catch myself thinking that he is going to come to bed soon.....and when i realize that he wont be in bed tonight i cannot help but cry. I miss him so terribly.
I could not sleep and i remembered how comforting Adam's letters were so i decided to read them.....the love that was in those letters made me cry so hard. How could I ever feel alone with a love as powerful as that? I began to miss Adam so terribly and I cried myself to sleep. I hate doing that....when i cry myself to sleep the next day i feel so drained and dead inside. And that makes me feel even more alone and empty. Lately my emptyness has been consuming me.....i want it to stop.....i want things to be wonderful again....i want to wake up every day and see Adam's perfect face, to feel his warm skin.....sometimes when i wake up in the middle of the night i catch myself thinking that he is going to come to bed soon.....and when i realize that he wont be in bed tonight i cannot help but cry. I miss him so terribly.