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I used to tell people when they were down that they needed to look on the positive side of everything.
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Secretly I knew that was a bunch of bullshit because I didn't do it, so why should I tell others? I don't know, but I did because it seemed right.
Maybe it's not bullshit though.
Even now, I've seen a few positive things, even with one of the worst things that could happen (well...not the worst, but the worst thing I've ever dealt with).
First of all, the fact that I made the right decision makes me feel really good. I'm so proud of myself and how I handeled things. I find it hard to believe.
Now, I've known for a long time that I am a weak person. I deal with it. But maybe I'm not as weak as I thought? Maybe I am getting better? I'm not really sure, this isn't D&D my will doesn't go up whenever I level...sadly. But I showed strength of character, or at least of mind...this impresses me.
Mostly I was rational and faithful...two characteristics I didn't think I had anymore.
Anywho...I realize none of you know what I'm talking about and that's how it'll be, but this is my journal and if I want to explain my feelings and not events I will.
...
Secretly I knew that was a bunch of bullshit because I didn't do it, so why should I tell others? I don't know, but I did because it seemed right.
Maybe it's not bullshit though.
Even now, I've seen a few positive things, even with one of the worst things that could happen (well...not the worst, but the worst thing I've ever dealt with).
First of all, the fact that I made the right decision makes me feel really good. I'm so proud of myself and how I handeled things. I find it hard to believe.
Now, I've known for a long time that I am a weak person. I deal with it. But maybe I'm not as weak as I thought? Maybe I am getting better? I'm not really sure, this isn't D&D my will doesn't go up whenever I level...sadly. But I showed strength of character, or at least of mind...this impresses me.
Mostly I was rational and faithful...two characteristics I didn't think I had anymore.
Anywho...I realize none of you know what I'm talking about and that's how it'll be, but this is my journal and if I want to explain my feelings and not events I will.