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i thought i would post this:
taken from andrew mcmahon's blog [singer for soco/jack's mannequin]
Tour for the Cure Part I
I would be remiss not to apologize for my absence from the blog in recent weeks. I can't turn up a great excuse, and while I was prepared to blame laziness I just considered the last month of work and feel anything but. So lets just say I was neglectful and hope I have learned from my missteps. :)
I figured I'd return with a tour wrap up. The short story is simple, the shows were amazing. For me this tour was a bit of reeducation in how to headline a show. I know it sounds crazy after so many years, but truthfully aside from the one-off shows we did in the spring it's been a long time for me. That being said it was a lot of work and a lot of learning and it was an experience that could only take place on a stage in front of a large crowd. Usually I am very self conscious being so vulnerable in front of so many people, but there was a humanity to this tour and it's audiences and I am so thankful for the ability to go through that reeducation without having to hide. I found that my body was not immune to what it's gone through this past 18 months nor was my mind. There were definitely times when the usual tour sickness would make it's rounds on me and leave me terrified I may be really sick again, there were nights my lungs didn't hold up and I would leave the stage feeling like I had just run a marathon. (Not that I've ever run a marathon or have any idea what doing so might feel like :) Still, with the hardships considered it was worth every minute. Not only did the tour help me to reclaim some confidence I had lost it taught me that sometimes the only thing you can do is wrestle your demons. Not to say they didn't occasionally get the best of me on this run, but while there were moments I felt too tired or sick to finish the tour it was not hard to see the impact of what we were doing nightly and it kept me steady. I am still waiting to get the final numbers on what the tour brought in for the dear jack foundation, but that will be posted in part II and I have a feeling it's going to be very impressive. To all of you who came out and supported us on this run as well as those involved in the light the night walks I am so thankful for your involvement. I also have to thank my management, label, agency and all the promoters on this tour who bent over backwards to turn up extra money anywhere they could. They did this knowing that it would end up in the hands of people who will be fighting to make sure that blood cancers become more treatable and eventually cured. In a business that is characterized by it's evils I have truly found a team of people who not only do what they do because they love music, but like you who came to the shows, they have huge hearts and I am honored to work with each and every one of them. In closing I would like to dedicate this tour to two incredibly strong young men who I met over the course of the past few months and whose attitudes throughout their battles with cancer were unwavering and positive. Both were gifted musicians in their early 20's and both had incredible friends and families who adored them and saw in them what it is to be truly courageous. When I found out that both men, Brad Andreas and Chad Harjer had lost their battles within four days of each other it became clear what we were doing this past month and who we were doing it for. It is in their names that I will donate earnings from this tour and with their families in my heart that I will aggressively pursue research for this disease. No one deserves to be taken so young but both Brad and Chad will live on in the purpose of everything we do with the Dear Jack Foundation going forward
i have nothing else for you to read.
either way, it will be okay
indifferent
i thought i would post this:
taken from andrew mcmahon's blog [singer for soco/jack's mannequin]
Tour for the Cure Part I
I would be remiss not to apologize for my absence from the blog in recent weeks. I can't turn up a great excuse, and while I was prepared to blame laziness I just considered the last month of work and feel anything but. So lets just say I was neglectful and hope I have learned from my missteps. :)
I figured I'd return with a tour wrap up. The short story is simple, the shows were amazing. For me this tour was a bit of reeducation in how to headline a show. I know it sounds crazy after so many years, but truthfully aside from the one-off shows we did in the spring it's been a long time for me. That being said it was a lot of work and a lot of learning and it was an experience that could only take place on a stage in front of a large crowd. Usually I am very self conscious being so vulnerable in front of so many people, but there was a humanity to this tour and it's audiences and I am so thankful for the ability to go through that reeducation without having to hide. I found that my body was not immune to what it's gone through this past 18 months nor was my mind. There were definitely times when the usual tour sickness would make it's rounds on me and leave me terrified I may be really sick again, there were nights my lungs didn't hold up and I would leave the stage feeling like I had just run a marathon. (Not that I've ever run a marathon or have any idea what doing so might feel like :) Still, with the hardships considered it was worth every minute. Not only did the tour help me to reclaim some confidence I had lost it taught me that sometimes the only thing you can do is wrestle your demons. Not to say they didn't occasionally get the best of me on this run, but while there were moments I felt too tired or sick to finish the tour it was not hard to see the impact of what we were doing nightly and it kept me steady. I am still waiting to get the final numbers on what the tour brought in for the dear jack foundation, but that will be posted in part II and I have a feeling it's going to be very impressive. To all of you who came out and supported us on this run as well as those involved in the light the night walks I am so thankful for your involvement. I also have to thank my management, label, agency and all the promoters on this tour who bent over backwards to turn up extra money anywhere they could. They did this knowing that it would end up in the hands of people who will be fighting to make sure that blood cancers become more treatable and eventually cured. In a business that is characterized by it's evils I have truly found a team of people who not only do what they do because they love music, but like you who came to the shows, they have huge hearts and I am honored to work with each and every one of them. In closing I would like to dedicate this tour to two incredibly strong young men who I met over the course of the past few months and whose attitudes throughout their battles with cancer were unwavering and positive. Both were gifted musicians in their early 20's and both had incredible friends and families who adored them and saw in them what it is to be truly courageous. When I found out that both men, Brad Andreas and Chad Harjer had lost their battles within four days of each other it became clear what we were doing this past month and who we were doing it for. It is in their names that I will donate earnings from this tour and with their families in my heart that I will aggressively pursue research for this disease. No one deserves to be taken so young but both Brad and Chad will live on in the purpose of everything we do with the Dear Jack Foundation going forward
i have nothing else for you to read.
either way, it will be okay