Goodbye, my almost lover
I am coping well.. Have not committed suicide... Yet.
Life's been a joke for me. All I am hoping for is a salvation to all that I am juggling with now. I've never felt so emo(?) and helpless and hopeless that I would turn to this space...
Currently I don't know what to hope for anyway so I think what's best I could do is to just go on with life and just accept whatever that comes in my way...
Honestly, easier said than done.
I don't know what to expect anymore cos all I am gonna do is just build walls of defence all around me, again, and make sure nobody enters this boundary cos I am sick of giving in, tear my walls down, let someone in, only to end up feeling much more broken than ever.
Reading back on the above paragraph, I really sound like a shell with no life or spirit in it. I need a distraction.
Mood's been pretty down in the dumps this week but I'd like to thank God for awesome friends I have. People I expected to be there for me, and even people I wouldn't expect to and it kinda just makes my life seem more worth living for? In a way... But I had some one missing in action from my life so suddenly so I don't know if it's still considered a happy thing to cheer and celebrate for.
I don't know how to sum up the past few weeks cos it's been a rollercoaster ride for me but yesterday was spent with good company and so was it the previous Friday when we celebrated Jacq's birthday and it finally did take my mind off certain issues... For the moment at least, hah.
VISUALSVISUALSVISUALS
Super act cool, but whatever.
Cailing not looking mentally deranged at all, honestly. How attractive
My fringe is long, thick and acts like a shade over my eyes for me. Kitty kat kool.
I wasn't trying to grope Cailing's ass, no honestly
Never, trust Six with the camera when she's high and deranged, "omg this picture is sooo nice!". Or maybe I am just too hideous for the camera, thanks
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& Jacq's birthday from about a week ago.
Nope, we aren't the birthday girls but we are the ones taking a picture with the cake WITHOUT the birthday girl.
Too lazy to upload the rest..... Will do so soon.
Life's been a joke for me. All I am hoping for is a salvation to all that I am juggling with now. I've never felt so emo(?) and helpless and hopeless that I would turn to this space...
Currently I don't know what to hope for anyway so I think what's best I could do is to just go on with life and just accept whatever that comes in my way...
Honestly, easier said than done.
I don't know what to expect anymore cos all I am gonna do is just build walls of defence all around me, again, and make sure nobody enters this boundary cos I am sick of giving in, tear my walls down, let someone in, only to end up feeling much more broken than ever.
Reading back on the above paragraph, I really sound like a shell with no life or spirit in it. I need a distraction.
Mood's been pretty down in the dumps this week but I'd like to thank God for awesome friends I have. People I expected to be there for me, and even people I wouldn't expect to and it kinda just makes my life seem more worth living for? In a way... But I had some one missing in action from my life so suddenly so I don't know if it's still considered a happy thing to cheer and celebrate for.
I don't know how to sum up the past few weeks cos it's been a rollercoaster ride for me but yesterday was spent with good company and so was it the previous Friday when we celebrated Jacq's birthday and it finally did take my mind off certain issues... For the moment at least, hah.
VISUALSVISUALSVISUALS
Super act cool, but whatever.
Cailing not looking mentally deranged at all, honestly. How attractive
My fringe is long, thick and acts like a shade over my eyes for me. Kitty kat kool.
I wasn't trying to grope Cailing's ass, no honestly
Never, trust Six with the camera when she's high and deranged, "omg this picture is sooo nice!". Or maybe I am just too hideous for the camera, thanks
-
& Jacq's birthday from about a week ago.
Nope, we aren't the birthday girls but we are the ones taking a picture with the cake WITHOUT the birthday girl.
Too lazy to upload the rest..... Will do so soon.