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I have a cold, the bug is probably from the plane. I have had 4 hours of sleep in the past 36 hours because it is too uncomfortble for me to even sleep, I have to wait to pass out.
An hour ago I got in the bath. 45 minutes later I am done, and I am standing and rinsing off with the shower when I slip, and fall. I felt like a bar of soap. I can't wait to see the monster bruises that develop.
Here are my options, in no particular order, for the next 5 months (or sooner, I guess):
-Try to take classes again at MCC
- Do what I have been doing, which is nothing
- Go to a mental hospital to treat the anxiety caused seizures
- Kill myself, or at least go off into the wilderness and see what comes of it
I have considered all of them for some time, mainly depending on my mood. None of these are really things I want to do. I don't think I'm going to be happy any time soon, either. Recently, if I am apathetic then I am doing good.
An hour ago I got in the bath. 45 minutes later I am done, and I am standing and rinsing off with the shower when I slip, and fall. I felt like a bar of soap. I can't wait to see the monster bruises that develop.
Here are my options, in no particular order, for the next 5 months (or sooner, I guess):
-Try to take classes again at MCC
- Do what I have been doing, which is nothing
- Go to a mental hospital to treat the anxiety caused seizures
- Kill myself, or at least go off into the wilderness and see what comes of it
I have considered all of them for some time, mainly depending on my mood. None of these are really things I want to do. I don't think I'm going to be happy any time soon, either. Recently, if I am apathetic then I am doing good.