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[fear_and_love]

my grandfather who sexually abused both my sister and i when we were younger died yesterday. i say good riddance, yet i can't stop thinking about it. my mom said he should have died today, since it is the day of the devil. my parents have known he was sick. and my dad told my uncle not to bother calling him when he died. my father does not care that his own dad is dead. I understand it but at the same time, i know what he did was unforgivable. but he is dead now. maybe we could all be a happy family again. now that hes not in the picture. because i haven't seen my aunts and uncles who i used to love with everything inside of me for a very very long time. and i could never forgive my grandfather, and yes my aunts and uncles got mad at our family for pressing charges against my grandfather because they were just trying to defend their dad. but I didn't do anything wrong, so i just have never understood why I lost loved ones because of it.

whatever. RIP i guess. Maybe i'll meet you in the afterlife and you won't be such a bad guy.