i lift my head and pray
Today has been very up and down. I'm starting back into the motions, so it's weird.
My mom is getting to my head, and I really don't need that this late in the plan. She's making me doubt myself, making me think all of this is just a bad idea because it really isn't safe. The driving. I she knows I freak out and she is worried. I don't see her like that very often.
She was really freaked out and it got to my head. I makes me thinks bad things and freaks me out. I had gotten over the paranoia and now, here I am, thinking. thinking thinking thinking.
I don't like it.
I want to go. I want to just get out and breathe different air for a day. To get that feeling on the road again, to know there is nothing I know around me and still love it.
I'm very nervous, in good ways and bad ways. I think we'll be okay.
We can do this. We'll be able to do this.
I really, really hope.
My mom is getting to my head, and I really don't need that this late in the plan. She's making me doubt myself, making me think all of this is just a bad idea because it really isn't safe. The driving. I she knows I freak out and she is worried. I don't see her like that very often.
She was really freaked out and it got to my head. I makes me thinks bad things and freaks me out. I had gotten over the paranoia and now, here I am, thinking. thinking thinking thinking.
I don't like it.
I want to go. I want to just get out and breathe different air for a day. To get that feeling on the road again, to know there is nothing I know around me and still love it.
I'm very nervous, in good ways and bad ways. I think we'll be okay.
We can do this. We'll be able to do this.
I really, really hope.