oh life....you're so....life
its been a while since i've actually updated in a way...the only things i can really recall is that i came up to adams both this weekend and about a week adn a half ago. each time is of course fun and this one his 21st birthday is in 2 days. i got him to things he loves the "america" book by jon stewart (it is really quite hilarious) and a cd by william shatner...yeah, i laughed too, but listening to it, its not so bad, i must say william has that something that just makes teh songs neat. i also got him a treatzza pizza from diary queen, quite delicious. while at teh grocery store we stocked up on 3 for 1.00 yogurt, and dont be put off, its quality yogurt. the guy before us though pretty much filled his basket with them, both humourous and scary. he's lying in bed right now, still trying to sleep. it wasn't a good night for him kinda. im trying to be for him all i can. im trying to make him happy without compromising everything about me. and its not fair to him that i still sometimes have a mentality of what happened with trevor. we went to alfies last night, it was a kick ass bar and we started having a completely stupid convo that kinda turned into a serious one. its always tough to come to harsh realizations but we all must. i have mine, and im still trying to let it completely sink in. because of this, its going to change how i see things in life and this relationship. i hope we last a really long time, but thats something now i cannot worry about any longer. the thought of loosing someone you care about and love so much is very hard, obviously. i just have to change some parts of my mentatlity towards relationships. for all i know, it could have been me who somehow drove trevor away slowly we how i treated teh long term. maybe, i should start believing in teh whole 'its better to have loved than lost, then never to have loved at all' instead of believing teh opposite. i should stop being selfish with how i think love should be.
gah, neway
we have been playing silent hill 4 - the room adn we are almost done. at times, its scary, jumpy get under your skin scary and other times jsut...not...i mean, comon, how are you supposed to be scared of zombie like creatures that burp when you hit them with an axe...or self moving wheel chairs...no, sorry, step it up a notch. teh floating ghost ppl are just starting to get annoying (they just wont stay down) but overall, i find it interesting.
eitehr today, or tmw will be hardcore study day, and for me work day
we are also supposed to go to the mall at some pt, but we prolly wont.
we are also supposed to go to a semi - formal wine and cheese tonight as well as a turkey dinner...adam seems to really want to wear his suit, no tie, backwards baseball cap ensemble, which he does look mighty fine in, as while, i, do not know what to wear...
so then, in conclusion...
ne ideas on what i should get adam for christmas?
gah, neway
we have been playing silent hill 4 - the room adn we are almost done. at times, its scary, jumpy get under your skin scary and other times jsut...not...i mean, comon, how are you supposed to be scared of zombie like creatures that burp when you hit them with an axe...or self moving wheel chairs...no, sorry, step it up a notch. teh floating ghost ppl are just starting to get annoying (they just wont stay down) but overall, i find it interesting.
eitehr today, or tmw will be hardcore study day, and for me work day
we are also supposed to go to the mall at some pt, but we prolly wont.
we are also supposed to go to a semi - formal wine and cheese tonight as well as a turkey dinner...adam seems to really want to wear his suit, no tie, backwards baseball cap ensemble, which he does look mighty fine in, as while, i, do not know what to wear...
so then, in conclusion...
ne ideas on what i should get adam for christmas?