pray for me
It's been a very long time since I've updated. Not really sure why. Just haven't. I wanted to let everyone know what's on with me so that hopefully you will pray for me. God answers prayers so I figure the more we have petitioning the better. hehe.
SO anyways.
I'm incredibly home sick. Not for my family, but for the Soo and for Jason and his family, and other friends I have up there. Deb, Mike, Brian... to name a few.
I had made the decision a while back to try to get a job up there this spring, and if I got a job, I would move up in May. Last weekend I applied at 5 veterinarians. I'm scared to death of working someplace else because thats all I know. I tried a coffee shop this fall in the Soo and I failed miserably and I dont' want to repeat it again.
Come to find out... I should be fired at my current job working for my dad at the Vet's here. My dad, being my boss/employer, told my mom if I was not his daughter, he would have fired me as soon as he found out I was applying elsewhere. It was a low blow.
I feel like I don't belong here anymore, but at the same time, I dont' see things progressng so that I can leave. I have 1 week until I have to tell my supervisor whether I will be working her this summer or not. If I can't give an answer, I'll probably be fired. If I tell them I wont' be there for the summer, I will be fired. If I tell them I will be... I guess I'm stuck. I dont 'want to go behind my dad's back and keep looking for a job and then give my 2 weeks notice after I've told them I'll be working there for the entire summer, because I don't think it would be pretty. Its one thing to let down your employer and leave them, but its an entirely different thing to do that to your own dad. I don't want to face him in that situation.
School is another thing. It is so low on my priority list. There just seems to be so many more things that are more important than it. I often feel like I'm trying to force it into my main priority because thats what people expect of me. But at the same time school just doesn't matter. I keep bumping God back into first, but then feel pressured to put school there again. Because if schools, not first... my studies slack and I do poorly. Ugh.
I'm always wishing to be farther in life than where I am. I want to be able to focus on whats important to me. God, loved ones, reaching out to others. Not school, not worrying if I'll have a job next week.
So I just ask that you all keep me in your prayers and that God's will will be done in my life. I pray for doors to be opened for me so I can start going some direction other than the stuck spot I'm in.
Thank you so much everyone!
~Rebecca
SO anyways.
I'm incredibly home sick. Not for my family, but for the Soo and for Jason and his family, and other friends I have up there. Deb, Mike, Brian... to name a few.
I had made the decision a while back to try to get a job up there this spring, and if I got a job, I would move up in May. Last weekend I applied at 5 veterinarians. I'm scared to death of working someplace else because thats all I know. I tried a coffee shop this fall in the Soo and I failed miserably and I dont' want to repeat it again.
Come to find out... I should be fired at my current job working for my dad at the Vet's here. My dad, being my boss/employer, told my mom if I was not his daughter, he would have fired me as soon as he found out I was applying elsewhere. It was a low blow.
I feel like I don't belong here anymore, but at the same time, I dont' see things progressng so that I can leave. I have 1 week until I have to tell my supervisor whether I will be working her this summer or not. If I can't give an answer, I'll probably be fired. If I tell them I wont' be there for the summer, I will be fired. If I tell them I will be... I guess I'm stuck. I dont 'want to go behind my dad's back and keep looking for a job and then give my 2 weeks notice after I've told them I'll be working there for the entire summer, because I don't think it would be pretty. Its one thing to let down your employer and leave them, but its an entirely different thing to do that to your own dad. I don't want to face him in that situation.
School is another thing. It is so low on my priority list. There just seems to be so many more things that are more important than it. I often feel like I'm trying to force it into my main priority because thats what people expect of me. But at the same time school just doesn't matter. I keep bumping God back into first, but then feel pressured to put school there again. Because if schools, not first... my studies slack and I do poorly. Ugh.
I'm always wishing to be farther in life than where I am. I want to be able to focus on whats important to me. God, loved ones, reaching out to others. Not school, not worrying if I'll have a job next week.
So I just ask that you all keep me in your prayers and that God's will will be done in my life. I pray for doors to be opened for me so I can start going some direction other than the stuck spot I'm in.
Thank you so much everyone!
~Rebecca