new year

[fdemonprincess]

well it is finally 06 and all that... well for a few days now... but you know what.. it feels like this will be the best one yet...

for the first time...

im looking at this new year as a chance to be new...

new person

new school

new people

new life...

im so excited.. i have to get my transcripts and i can start school on monday....

yes thats right me.. ashley.. i am finally after all this time of.. "maybe i should go back to school and do something with my life" am going back to school.

my brother is helping me to do something with myself

ive taken myself away from everything i know and everyone i know so that i can for the first time worry about myself... and no one else

and what happens?

i meet this most wonderful person...

the one time i am not looking for love and i am more worried about myself... i find the one thing i made my life revolve around... without looking...

i feel like for the first time everything is really falling into place... not just i happy with some dude... but i am happy in my own skin... i am honestly confortable.. i never thought it would happen... but it has

i have been more happy in the past couple of days then i have in the last couple of years...

im so happy that i cant even express it...

so far i love this year...

i am honestly very proud of myself.. and im glad that my brother has pushed so far... and where he has pushed me.. i am slowly and surly becoming a better person and im proud of this person and i like me...

for me to actually like myself is a big step... i can be so mean to people and im glad that i am going through all of this... ive always been proud of who i am... but there is a differance between being proud of who you are and be proud of what you am doing.... *sigh* well.. i should go... i have finish up dinner

oh yea... making dinner for my brother and some other really great people.... that i love... so yea i should go....

thanks for listening....

E.A.