look for the girl with the broken smile
i miss the old days back when weekends=catching up on all the sleep i dont get during the school week. i dont sleep anymore, and i really am at the point where i could sleep an entire day. i went to my aunt's spa friday after school and got a facial. i got to drift off a little (til she started talking to me and putting steam on my face) and when i left the spa i was in such a daze it was insane. i just felt really... off. like i had no control of what i was doing and that i could fall asleep at any second. so what i shouldve done last night was stayed home and slept. but of course i went out. me and cole went to christiana mall to get liz's bday gift. then after the mall we went to chases brothers house and watched whatever was on tv. it was really chill but it was fun. i like hanging out with cole, i really hope we keep hanging out even though volleyballs over.
and then tonight was the allstar game. we won, but it was a shitty game. it was way too casual. it was one of those games where we all knew we were gonna win no matter how much we sucked, and we did win. it was suposed to be flight b versus independent conference, but for some reason only 4 independence girls showed up, so we had to send 3 people from our team over. it worked out cuz the rest of us got more playing time but still, thats pretty gay. why wouldnt someone come to an allstar game? but yeah, im not real happy with the game. cuz i had such a good warm up so i was really amped for the game and then the coach was like "jes we need you to play middle the first game." i suck horribly at middle. so after 25 points of me playing a position i cant play, i was pretty much mentally and emotionally out of the game. and it didnt help that everytime i was around CJ (the really good concord girl) she would say "i wish that belgium girl [liesbeth] was here, i really want to play with her. shes so good....." like yeah i get your hint cj, i appreciate it. oh well. my whole family, plus my grandparents, and chase, came to watch. then we all went out to eat. it was cute, chase was being really good with melissa and michael. they love him now.
ah i just want next weekend to come. i really hope all this time and money put into this thing doesnt go to waste. i really just wanna make semis. i know i wont, but i'll try. i guess i need to see the other 69 girls first. like itll just suck to have all these people come to see me and then me not even make it anywhere. not to mention that every weekend for teh past month has been shopping for this thing, trying on outfits over and over to make sure theyre perfect. everyday we realize oh one more thing. what i would really like to do, but have absolutely no time for, is go back down to christiana to go to A&F for a white tank top. i need a long white tank top, cuz none of mine are quite long enough. and i really dont wanna settle for anything less than the best. haha that sounds really snooty, but i dont mean it that way. its just like, everything counts. even when we're not technically being scored we're still making an impression. and i need to make a stellar first impression and then reinforce it as much as possible to maybe make myself one of the 15. ah thats all i want!
i really really need a vacation.
and then tonight was the allstar game. we won, but it was a shitty game. it was way too casual. it was one of those games where we all knew we were gonna win no matter how much we sucked, and we did win. it was suposed to be flight b versus independent conference, but for some reason only 4 independence girls showed up, so we had to send 3 people from our team over. it worked out cuz the rest of us got more playing time but still, thats pretty gay. why wouldnt someone come to an allstar game? but yeah, im not real happy with the game. cuz i had such a good warm up so i was really amped for the game and then the coach was like "jes we need you to play middle the first game." i suck horribly at middle. so after 25 points of me playing a position i cant play, i was pretty much mentally and emotionally out of the game. and it didnt help that everytime i was around CJ (the really good concord girl) she would say "i wish that belgium girl [liesbeth] was here, i really want to play with her. shes so good....." like yeah i get your hint cj, i appreciate it. oh well. my whole family, plus my grandparents, and chase, came to watch. then we all went out to eat. it was cute, chase was being really good with melissa and michael. they love him now.
ah i just want next weekend to come. i really hope all this time and money put into this thing doesnt go to waste. i really just wanna make semis. i know i wont, but i'll try. i guess i need to see the other 69 girls first. like itll just suck to have all these people come to see me and then me not even make it anywhere. not to mention that every weekend for teh past month has been shopping for this thing, trying on outfits over and over to make sure theyre perfect. everyday we realize oh one more thing. what i would really like to do, but have absolutely no time for, is go back down to christiana to go to A&F for a white tank top. i need a long white tank top, cuz none of mine are quite long enough. and i really dont wanna settle for anything less than the best. haha that sounds really snooty, but i dont mean it that way. its just like, everything counts. even when we're not technically being scored we're still making an impression. and i need to make a stellar first impression and then reinforce it as much as possible to maybe make myself one of the 15. ah thats all i want!
i really really need a vacation.