Nov 06, 2005 13:20
this weekends been alright. last night was terrible. it wasnt one particular thing, it was everything. i realized that im pretty unhappy and resentful. of a lot of stuff. and as much as id love to let it go, ive been trying to let it go for the past, oh i dunno, 4 or 5 years of my life, and its just not leaving me. cuz it happens over and over and over. i am mad at no one but at the same time im mad at everyone. it just sucks. i cried.
i didnt do a whole lot this weekend. lots of shopping though. but i had a purpose. the purpose is not something i wanna tell the whole world yet but a few people know already. its pretty exciting actually. im really looking forward to it. but yea, i went up to king of prussia to get what i needed to get. of course i got sidetracked and did some shopping for regular clothes too. i got a bunch of stuff from hollister. i was also looking at purses. i asked to see this chanel bag at neimans. when i asked how much it costed the lady was like "this one's 14 and this ones 16" (and i thought "as in 14...hundred?!) then she went and scanned them (like i was actually gonna buy them haha) and she was like "yeah this ones $1470 and this ones $1690." i just thanked her and walked away. i didnt like the bags that much anyway. haha.
so chase apparently has some huge surpise for me. i cant wait to see it. all i know is that it cost alot of money and that wherever he needs to pick it up from is closed today and tomorrow so i have to wait til tuesday. hmm...
well of course i dont have time to sit here and write more. my parents are still mad at me from last night. and theyre only mad at me cuz i was mad at them. but they arent the only people im mad at. its not even anger, its... resentment i guess. i dunno. im wrong.